Rants

Today was a boring day, went to collect my spare specs from the optical shop, and bought some "one day" contact lens as well... haha, for my grad ceremony, cause i have no more contact lenses.

Went out with the Monkey gang plus someone else last night as a farewell party for AK! he has entered to army this afternoon.. We had dinner at the row of shops opposite beauty world, ate at this shop called "5 stars".. food was ok.. thanks Zen for the treat! den we went to play LAN, played something i am really bad at, "Battlefield".. haha, i was always the lousiest... come to think of it, i have always not been real good at games, any kind of games, even those i like.. for eg, Generals.. though i like it, i still lose when i fight against my friends.. haha! but wad does it matter rite? its all in the name of FUN! we den went to macdonalds to have some shaker fries, yum yum.. i like shaker fries!

I wanna watch movie! Shrek 3, and other shows! b4 i enlist next friday...

haiz.. it really amazes me how some ppl never fail to discourage me, no matter wad the circumstances, whether they are in the good mood, or bad mood.. and if i do voice it out, i am deemed as sensitive... like, what the heck? When i ask you, "whats the problem?", you tell me not to ask you. when i tell u my problems, u say i am sensitive.. is that the definition of a friend? you make me wonder if u ever did consider me as a real friend... you also seem not to bother much about how i feel everytime u conjure up a certain action, u seem to take my feelings for granted.. you always make so much friggin noise when i do something u dont like, making me sound like such an evil person, the bad person..

You have too much pride my friend, you always say they are in the wrong, but why dont u look at yourself, and ask if u can be forgiven?, rather than asking if u can ever forgive them? rather than always thinking you have so many ppl backing you up? that it doesnt really matter if you have lost one friend, cause you have too many to spare? what are we taught?

Ephesians 4:2 - Be COMPLETELY humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

Ask yourself if you are showing humbleness, and patience, and love.

What is love?

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

i think u need to read these 4 verses over and over and over again...

think about it... i wont say anymore..

i just needed to vent my frustration... have been feeling rather down the past 1 week... but in front of some "friends", i have been trying to keep it in and not make such a big thing out of it..

In the end, no one is perfect, i am definately not perfect, i have my faults.. its up to ppl to advise me on how to become a better person.. i realised that sometimes, i do need to rely on my friends for help... thats wad friends are for rite? but right now, it still is tough to rely on some ppl.. but slowly, i will learn...

Ah... another thing that is mind boggling now, should i change BS group to the one Cindy is opening? or should i stay at the current one? am thinking quite hard now...asking myself wad issit i really want in a BS group b4 i even consider changing...

ok, tt was a long post.. if there is any part in my post anyone of you agree or dont agree, or object to strongly, feel free to post your comments under the "comments" section of this post...

Good night!