Met Alvin for breakfast today at KAP... talked about certain things, our lives, wads been troubling us... it was a good and fruitful time i must say... always look forward to talk to him about wads been happening, and hear from him...

went to school for the practise of the dance steps for serve cambodia... Ifah was in charge... she's done a GREAT job so far! but shes kinda stressed out with certain things... well, i will just give my support to her so she wont give up! Ifah: You've done well! dont give up!

I really really really hope and pray i will be able to get along with everyone, i really dun want to find myself in another mess with other people... Serve Cambodia team: we need to work harder with being closer together, we need to put away our grudges, forgive... i know its easy to say, and tough to do, but if we all try, i believe it can be done... i myself will try too! it wont hurt...

told my serve cambodia lecturer in charge that i couldnt go for one of the briefings next week cause i was involved with the IMF... when she did not reply, i started to worry and thought: "was she angry?"... so i sent her the same message again... but still did not reply until about an hour later... haha... guess she was busy with stuff... she replied me with something which made me worry even more... this was my train of thoughts immediately: "oh man, thats it, i'm blacklisted! she hates me!!!", "is she just being sarcastic?", "is she pissed cause i did not commit my full time to serve cambodia?". Then i decided to take it positively, and not think too much... and so replied her with a message with humility... haha, not sure if tts the right word to use...Well, i must say, even when i look at that message now, it still sends shivers down my spine... all i can tell myself is: "tts not wad she meant, tts not wad she meant..."

i think too much...

is that good? is that bad?

somehow i still think that is good... but of course i must be extra careful, because thinking too much adds extra risk of misunderstanding... and sensitivity is something which i cannot get rid off too easily u know...

like i told Alvin this morning, i guess God puts these obstacles in my life to build me up... i just have to be thankful, as alvin told me, that God did not put all of them into my life, all at once... which might kill me...

oh well...persistance...

enough about tt... went to watch a movie with esther, leon and yuetwei at cineleisure, The Host... it was a so-so show...maybe not my kinda show...

its back to school tomorrow for dance practise again... haha!