ok, back from the retreat... well, it was tiring, physically, and emotionally... its been really tiring physically, cause of all the running here and dere, and for the games at the beach, though it was not so difficult, i think i was kinda weak... kinda heaty i think... my mouth swell again...

There were some discouraging moments, i would confess... but well, i have learnt to accept them, though i would still be still discouraged... inevitable somehow...

but rite now instead of telling everyone what the discouraging things for me was, i will not, i will tell of the very very encouraging things...

I want to thank some people for all the encouragement they have given me, whether small or big... These people are:

1. My Mentor (even though he was not at the retreat)

2. Lawrence

3. Morgan

4. Daniel

5. Derek

6. Eunice Chong

The six of you have really really encouraged me, and really made my day especially when i was down, during some parts of the retreat. I am sure each of them have been through what i have been through, and can understand, thats probably why they took the effort to encourage me...

I just want to thank my mentor, even before the retreat itself, and even after the retreat, have been continuously encouraging me... thanks, i have read the card you gave me during sunday service, it is really encouraging... At the time i am writing this, you are probably in Thailand already fulfilling God's mission for you... Just wanted to encourage you that you are not alone, even though people might have left the team, dun get upset, because God is the ultimate overseer of the whole trip...

Wanna thank lawrence and morgan and daniel and derek, for at alot of times during the retreat, you have always showered me with encouragements, such as, good job, dun get discouraged, and all those...

Eunice Chong, for the time after bbq, when i tried to gather everyone to settle down, 3 or 4 times, and everyone just took my instructions just like a passing wind, totally ignored me, i became stressed, leading to being pissed, and i suddenly scolded the whole group there... i am sorry to all of you, but hope you all would uderstand... Eunice, helped me and calmed me down.. telling me not to be too stressed... thanks alot...

well, planning and leading a camp, i must say it is not easy, involves alot of emotional hurts, but i guess its how u handle it...for me, during the camp, i somehow did my utmost best to be strong, and hide the hurts... cause i guess that by letting it out, it might not have benefitted anyone, or anything...in fact it might have made matters worse... so i chose to keep quiet... i realised that it is really no use sharing certain things with people... well, maybe to some people, yes, but not most people...

Tomorrow will be another tiring day i guess, i will be over at wisma selling "MyStamps" for Singpost, as part of learning certain stuff for the upcoming roadshow in school, when school reopens... i would probably be there about 1...

ok, i gotta go...oh, and hope this skin is good enough, theres actually a background music, a band that i like, song is titled "Secret", quality of song is not too good, but nvm.. haha...