y do people just wanna make my life hard? y do they insist on piercing me deep within? i dun understand... another thing i hate... already u know i am facing some trouble... but still it feels like u wanna make things difficult for me... i know u also are facing some trouble... and i did sympathise with u... but i see no effort in a return of sympathy toward my problems... yet i see a person in u that wanna make things more tough for me... cant u at least say some nice words? instead of discouraging words? one thing i hate is, u come up to me, and make a fuss outta something, den claim tt theres nothing wrong, when there obviously is, den make me sound guilty, and just shut me up... i guess some people just dun understand... and that includes myself... darn...

hai... crap...

enough about tt... it aint gonna be better even if i said anything... afterall, i am nothing...rite?

preparation so far is still ok... went back to school today, yes, on a saturday... and forgo my BS... darn... see, i do make sacrifices... even things that affect my own faith... i guess this is a price i have to pay for my own decisions...

i feel like shutting myself out from everything now...from school... from church (meaning change church, not completely stop going to church), from everything...


I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out Your name

Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace

Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me

I am longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty