Things have been really weird for me today... felt really awkward the whole day today...

was supposed to be in eugene's house at 9am today for worship practise, but guess wad time i woke up??? 10.30am! hahaha... so irresponsible of me... but God was good! haha... luckily the alternate plan was easily thought of... haha... jeanne woke up late too anyway... everything went on smoothly in the end...

den had to go for church worship practise in church... so 3 of us, eunice, jeanne and myself went, eunice drove... not a bad driver la... haha... somehow my singing was very flat today, very dead, and no tune... i couldnt sing properly, was it because i did not try hard enough? i dunno... but it was tough...

den went back to eugene's house for bible study... leading worship today was abit weird... i dunno y... somehow today, words could not come out of my mouth so easily... i think i wasnt so prepared... but nevertheless, angela encouraged me by saying, "u should lead more, quite good!" thanks for the encouragement angela!

we watched a documentary on noah's ark... it was ok la... not say that boring, but not say that exciting either... den came the time when i was supposed to announce about the retreat... i know i sounded dead... and not motivating enough... daniel pulled me to one side soonafter and questioned me on certain things... afterthat, while i was leaving, cindy asked me wad daniel talk to me about... ok la, i told her...

i think i'm just not myself today...everything seemed to be going wrong... words could not flow out of my mouth easily as it usually would... something is stopping me...and i dunno wad... it feels weird... can anyone help me?

this would be a sure no reply... but yea... tts life...

i think i am getting less sensitive... haha... i think one has to be more forgiving in order to be less sensitive...maybe i wasnt so forgiving last time... but now i shall concentrate on being more forgiving...so i will hurt less people... i think i hurt alot of people these few days... but i just wanna say i am sorry... i hope u will accept this apology...

i guess it is no point making grudges against one another... wad will it lead to? u and i being unhappy? i guess if we learn to forgive, tts enough... life would be better...

yes, each of us has our own mood swings... tts life... our strength lies in how we control our mood swings... i confess i am weak... but i will still perservere and try to change...

but excuses are excuses... its no use... we have to change ourselves first if we want to change things around us... tts life...