I dunno... what have i done to deserve all that is happening to me now... what have i done? the same line that repeats and repeats over and over again in my mind... i wish i had the answer...

Why must people strike me when i am feeling most emotionally hurt, y must they choose this time? why?

i wonder why i am trying so hard, why am i trying so hard to make people happy, when they dont consider my feelings, and take me for granted? why?

i thought of just leaving it alone, but leaving it alone would be an irresponsibility on my part...

I guess the only 2 people that can understand how i am feeling now is alvin, and my bro sydney. I feel like, well... to put it simply, shit... i really dont know what to do, i really dont know which direction to take, i dun know where i am currently heading, i'm aimless...its useless... i tried so many times to turn things around, but it ends up worse... i blame myself... To alvin, syd and kristi: thanks for listening...

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I wish, there would be a miracle.

God, in this time or my urgent need, please save me from my pain, and burden...

i put my hands out
tried to catch you

i tried hard
you kicked my hands away, spit on it
i looked at my hands
cursed at it
then wept

cryin inside...