Some people just dont think before they say things... a "friend" once accused me of this statement... i now understand what he means...

I hate being threatened... perhaps cause i had a bad experience in secondary 1... that memory still lies within me... now whenever i get threatened, i kinda get all defensive... even one small sentence of threat, even for the smallest reasons, i cant seem to take it... i'm really sorry if i offended anyone, but oh well...

I feel i dun owe anyone an explanation for this behaviour, tts just me, i and dun think you can classify this as being too proud... well, as said, i am just too sick and tired of arguing, perhaps cause of all the work i have to do... all the tasks, all the meetings...

I also hate being pushed... look, its not tt i dun wanna go for th mission trip, in fact, i really want to go for the mission trip, but its just that i have already made a commitment in BA society for Orientation next year ok? it will not be good if i just quit tt and join the mission trip... its not that i put BAoc before God's work, its really not tt... but its just that i have made a commitment to BA society till next orientation... i would really wish to go for the missions work next year.

No one seems to care, no one seems to be there... To help me in need...

I dunno whether i am confused... but it cant be, cause i have really thought about all these b4 actually writing down all these here... i'm going mad soon... and its not funny... a breakdown awaits me...