Energy Blast

It is finally OVER!

2008-06-28T21:00:00.004+08:00

It is done.. the month of all months has finally come to an end! I've done it, finally completed it.. all 3 grueling weeks in another land, all 72km of route march.. i did it.. i cant believe i managed to complete it, but i did.. it wasnt easy, nobody said it would be.. it was tough, seriously, else why would i be doing it in the first place? if its too easy, then wads the point? finally, i have earned the Red Beret!

The 3 weeks in Brunei was actually not as bad as i thought it would be.. heng, no turn outs, probably cause of the death incident of the airforce guy.. poor guy, must have pushed too hard... tragic indeed... i was kinda shocked.. it happened in the middle of one of my exercises, and so my exercise was cut short, due to the army's stand-down for a few days... conquered Biang, it actually wasnt tt tough as everyone was talking about it.. but yes, needed alot of rest.. swam across the river thrice... walked through the swamp, yucks... its like walking through thick chocolate fondue which didnt melt properly...R&R day was ok, we went to visit some museums, a mosque, and a shopping centre(comparable to tampines mall).. they're stuff there is more expensive, cause cost of living is higher.. visited the pasar malam across the street, and oh man, they sell alot of food... i couldnt resist.. chicken backside, haha, sounds disgusting, but i tried it anyway, it was good... most of their food in the pasar malam was grilled or fried food, and i was feeling adventurous, so yea.. ate chicken wings also, yeow hong bought a kebab(its not like those on satay sticks, their kebabs is in buns).. good food! flight back to singapore was at night, while waiting to board the plane, did my favorite past-time.. taking silly photos...

there are more, but waiting for shyam to send to me..

72km was tough.. but i somehow felt 35km was tougher, cause by the end of my 35, i almost couldnt walk.. but for 72, i still could walk.. probably cause i drank lots of 100+ so i wont get cramps and all... it was tiring, and tough, but i managed to pull through.. the perserverance of my company mates made me want to complete it too.. and i learnt a new interesting quote from my CSM from this walk..

"Pain tells me i'm still friggin ALIVE!!!"

cool... i like it...

so i'm finally back.. 1 whole month i've not gone to church... i miss the church...

now i must rest and recuperate, my feet is pain! haha..

But i finally got the Red Beret.. after 1 whole friggin year... it was some tough journey.. it is expensive..go to my facebook profile if u wanna see the photos.. haha...

tired man, need more sleep!

The Month of ALL Months...

2008-05-31T09:47:00.003+08:00

Coming all the way till here was not easy. Tough times, fun times, i've been there, done that... This June will be a month to conclude all that i have been through eversince i enlisted.

I will FINALLY be embarking on my 3 week "holiday/chalet" to Brunei next week, which will be filled with lotsa "funfilled" activities such as swamp walk, river crossing, navigation, company ops, etc... it will be tiring, no one said it wont be.. there will be times i would really wanna give up, thats only natural. I just pray i will complete this milestone of my army life without much problems, i hope the time will pass FAST. I pray i wont get foot rot, seriously... which bring me to the next milestone of my army.

My 3 weeks vacation in brunei will end on the 25 June, where my plane will touch down in Singapore darn early in the morning.. we will go home to rest for the day, and then book in that night... On the 26 June, i will be FINALLY walking my 72km, which was postphoned all cause of the nasilemak guy... Most of my seniors said they walked 35km immediately after "Ex All Out", well, i will be walking 72km almost immediately after "Ex Greenwood" i pray i dont get foot rot or any injuries during my brunei so i wont suffer too much in this route marches to conclude all route marches..I Pray i will Complete it.

27 June 2008 will be the day of the Red Beret.. I forsee that i wont be able to walk properly, drenched out of all energy..i wont even talk much.. but i will be glad its all over, all 72km of it, all 3 weeks of the brunei... which will open a new chapter in my army life, the second half of it...

Wadever it is, the Month of all Months is still only 1 month, how long can it be? soon, it will all end, it will all be over.. and there i will be on the 28 June, at home, on my bed, thinking: Its a Tough Job, indeed it was, but someone has to do it.. It was tough, but i completed all of it... It will be a "Defining Moment"

Thats it for wads gonna happen for me in June... Now for wad happened to me in May..

Had Cohesion Day last week with whole of 6 coy.. finally took a photo as a detachment, funny ones in fact.. I love funny photos, brings back alot of memories..

I had fun, though it was tiring running here and there..

Before cohesion day, we walked our 35km route march.. it was tough, had blisters even though i wore good socks.. had cramps halfway through also.. hopefully i wont kenna so much of these problems in 72km.. Only the men know the feeling...

Oh, applied for my university already, will probably know whether i'm accepted after i come back from brunei..

Something i found on youtube. brings back lots of memories to when i played the game a few years back... i have no idea wad the music means though..

Ok this is one of my fav songs from One Republic.. in fact, my nick now actually came from this song.. i cant find their music video for this, but i found one which is the FF8 version.. good enough...

One Republic - Prodigal(FF8 Version)

Ok, tts it for now!

Say All I Need

2008-05-11T19:37:00.003+08:00

My 72km route march has been postphoned! argh! means my red beret postphoned..sian..

72 postphoned cause we're on for Ops VL again.. soo... 35km pushed back, i did not do it last week.. will be doing it in 2 weeks time.. doing 12km FM this coming week..

Ops starting again, meaning i will not be able to come out on most weekends.. schedule will be hectic, irregular.. but nvm.. hopefully the nasilemak guy will be caught soon...

I'm in a shopping mood! haha.. bought 2 shirts last week from Zara.. and finally bought a bag i have been eyeing on for quite some time from Projectshop Blood bros..

Had BS outing yesterday.. it was actually an outing to find BS materials, we decided to do Isiah.. interesting, but seems tough.. we had lunch at this ramen shop at tiong bahru plaza, man, the soup was HOT! went to SKs bookshop to get the BS materials.. after tt went to town with dora and cindy to shop! haha.. nice day.. i miss those days..

Argh, havent applied for Uni yet! hopefully i find the time this coming week, if i can book out on weekdays.. haha!

I like this song from One Republic.. very unique! in fact, i like most of their songs! cool.. Enjoy! Have a great week ahead!

One Republic - Say (All I Need)

The Month of Walking

2008-05-01T13:18:00.004+08:00

May has finally come. Well, i forsee this May is gonna be somewhat interesting, painful, happy at the end.. As you can see, i have declared this specific month the Month of Walking.. For me, and for those in training together with me, will probably understand why.. Theres gonna be some loooong route marches this month.. like say next Friday, i'm gonna walk my 35km route march... dunno whether we're gonna do the 12km fast march, hopefully not though.. By the end of this month, to be exact- 29 May, i'm finally gonna walk my 72km route march. And the next day- 30 May, i'm gonna be presented my the Red Beret.. Hopefully everything goes well! The Red Beret is definitely something to look forward to, It will finally conclude the 11 Months of training eversince i enlisted, it will be like a Grand Finale of my training, den i will proceed on to Operations.. I pray i can sustain, i pray i wont fall out, i pray i wont quit!

Yesterday went out with my det mates to Vivo City, had lunch at this hong kong cafe, den walked around, watched "Iron Man"

It was interesting, always like watching those sophisticated kind of stuff, and once again, i was attracted to the shiny stuff.. worth watching, though i expected more action.. but worth watching..

Oh, back to the hong kong cafe, Matthew ordered this drink, he actually wanted it cold, but in the end, there wasnt any cold version of it, so it came hot.. it was the Milk with an egg in it.. Yucks! haha...

Hopefully there will be more of these outings..

Ok, need to go cut hair, cause theres a parade tomorrow, and i dont wanna risk any of my weekends! haha.. ciao!

Lulu & Ronan Keating - We've Got Tonight

2008-04-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

Ok, this will be a fast one cause gotta prepare to go to camp soon..

The past week felt long, yet went past quite fast, i dunno how to explain it.. perhaps its cos of the field camp from monday to wednesday.. field camp was quite tough this time, probably cos alot of walking with fbo.. and everyone steps into a drain with the water about knee level on the very first day, and got wet feet for the rest of the field camp.. sian, but anyways, it ended..

Did a combat jump on friday, which concluded my mod 2 of BAC.. therefore, i am fully BAC trained.. i love jumping out of chinooks.. the jump on friday however, wasnt so good, maybe cause the wind was quite strong.. i fumbled.. but hey, i'm still here, thank God i didnt get injured! haha..

i hope this coming week will pass fast.. labour day is this week, so i am expecting it to past fast.. wow, May is coming, therefore 72km is coming very soon, the countdown is starting, countdown not to ORD, but to get the red beret.. i really hope and pray i have the endurance and strength for 72km, i pray i can and i will complete it without much difficulties, and injuries..i need motivation! Pray for me!

Ok, gotta go start preparing now..

Ronan Keating - Life is a Rollercoaster

Dead Fantasy

2008-04-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

Once again, time passes so past.. April passed by me so fast! Very soon, May is gonna come, and by the end of May, i'm gonna walk my 72km route march! Woooo....

The past week felt long, training days always feel long anyway... did ippt again on friday, and tried doing it without drinking red bull! haha.. felt a little more tired when running.. and i dont think its psychology, i now believe red bull really helps a little..

Will have to adapt to a few changes the next few weeks, new RSM, new CSM.. hopefully my new CSM will be good.. i felt that the outgoing CSM was quite good, very patient with us.. its quite sad that he is leaving.. oh wells.. thats life! gotta adapt to it fast!

lotsa field camps coming up soon.. in fact, going on a field camp tomorrow! oh man.. camo cream again! sian!

My sister showed me 2 youtube videos yesterday and it was really darn friggin cool! i loved it! brings back memories when i was playing FFX and FFX-2.. Heres the videos anyway, if u do wanna see them.. they are for "Final Fantasy" and "Dead or Alive" lovers btw, they call it "Dead Fantasy"

Dead Fantasy 1

Dead Fantasy 2

I hope they will come up with more! They really should make a game comprising all the characters from final fantasy, maybe street fighter style! Maybe a fighting game like this video.. they i will definately buy it! of course it will be better if they include all the guy characters instead of just the female characters.

Oh, i visited a friends blog and saw this youtube video, its hilarious! haha.. a nice musical in the public!

Haha.. i gotta have more of these funny videos man.. if you guys have any funny videos, please please please give me the link!

Alright, no music video this week, cause these interesting videos should be enough! haha!

Pray for me that this week passes fast, my field camp ends fast and safe.
Pray that my upcoming fast marches and 35km and 72km route marches will past fast, that i will endure through all of them, that i will not get injured, that i wont get too many blisters! haha.. Thanks alot and God Bless all of you!

Shalom,
Alexander

A Long Week...

2008-04-13T18:37:00.003+08:00

The past week felt long.. real long.. only booked out yesterday afternoon. So training officially restarted, did rappelling and water crossing this week. Rappelling was quite fun, missed the chance to do the australian rappelling cos it rained. We also had the chance to experience roping, that was quite fun too! Good thing about my vocation is that the things you do makes you feel like you're in an adventure camp. We get to experience airborne, rappelling, etc... its definitely an exciting vocation! Water crossing was also ok, only that we need to wash all our stuff (fieldpack, lbv, etc...). An eventful week nonetheless!

Coming up soon(very soon) are lots of fieldcamps, route marches, fast marches... And the day of my Red Beret is coming very soon.. i really really seriously hope everything goes well, that i wont fall out halfway, that i will complete the entire 72km... Pray for me!

Sister came back from the USA and bought me a cardigan, something i've been looking for.. now i must find something to match it with, and find the right occassion to wear it! haha.. I've been in the mood to buy clothing.. i wanna SHOP!!! somehow i feel addicted to shopping, haha!

Woke up with a sore throat this morning, lots of phlegm.. i think i'm getting a flu..

I wanna go for a holiday overseas! Hong Kong, USA, Australia, anywhere i can shop and eat! haha! I wanna travel!

I want a Camera.. wonder which camera is good, and of course affordable...

Oh, The Simpsons just started on TV, gonna watch it! haha! bye!

One Republic - Mercy

2008-04-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

Training's gonna resume this week after close to a month's "rest" from training. The feeling of resuming training kinda sucks, but it has to be done.. resuming training means, more route marches, fast marches, field camps, etc... well, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger! haha..

Gonna have Rappelling this week, wish me luck! haha.. hope its gonna be fun!

Just 2 more months till i get the red beret, i must hang in there! i must walk that 72km route march.. i MUST endure!

I am in the mood for shopping! haha.. i wanna buy a bag from project shop blood bros, and a pair of sandals from maybe beetle bug..

Recently heard this song and liked it alot.. This is the Grey's Anatomy version btw, cause i like Grey's Anatomy.. duh.. haha!

The Fray - How to Save a Life (Grey's Anatomy)

Makes Me Wonder...

2008-03-23T21:09:00.006+08:00

I wish every week was like this, needing only to book in on monday, den i'll have extra time at home, can sleep an extra night in my nice, cozy, comfy bed..

went to the education fair at suntec last week, happy to see a few familiar faces! its still hard to decide wad i wanna study there.. i am now looking between UWA and Monash.. hmm.. tough choice..

I really wonder whether the nasi lemak guy will be caught? is he dead already? has he already escaped our country? is he really still alive? question marks all over.. Are we searching in vain? When will we stop the search? will we be able to catch him? hmm..... i hope he will be caught soon, so the tiresome search will be all over...

i need a tan. seriously...

oh, did i say before? i went to the airshow with bev, jon and justin? took very few photos though, only justin brought a cam.. and i din have a chance to take a photo with bev..

I want a Camera, i NEED a Camera. Seriously...

Went for Easter Service today, sermon was good! Some verses really comforted me, strengthened my faith. one verse is 1 Corinthians 15:55

"Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?"

Den i went on to read 3 verses later, which is so comforting, and something i wanna remember alot, to encourage myself, and to also remind others, especially some of my friends who are losing faith.

1 Corinthians 15:58
"Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."

Anyways, i hope and pray that this coming week will once again be a good week!

i so love Maroon 5...

Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder

The Weekend

2008-03-09T22:30:00.003+08:00

The weekend was good, fruitful, relaxing... watched 2 movies, The Waterhorse, and The Leap Years.. Both were good shows i think, worth watching.. i liked Leap years better though, although its one of those lovey dovey shows i dont usually watch.. but i was kinda attracted by the trailer they keep on showing on the television, so i decided to watch. Definately NOT a disappointment. They used alot of Corrine May songs too! haha.. Li Lin was looking great as usual..

Went to Grammaphone and bought a few CDs i have been wanting to buy:
- One Republic
- "Drastic Fantastic" by KT Tunstall
- "Songs about Jane" by Maroon 5
- Rihanna (you know, the one who sang the Umbrella song..)

Anyway, once again, yet another week of army life awaits me, hopefully this week will be peaceful, fun, so time in army will pass faster.. Oh, and i still have yet to figure out wad i wanna study for my university, i dunno where to study either.. oh well.. hopefully i can figure it out soon..

Hope this week will pass fast..

Finally, a song i like.. "Apologise" from One Republic

Enjoy!

Timbaland feat. One Republic - Apologize

Such A Chore

2008-02-17T18:50:00.002+08:00

Going back to camp every Sunday evening has always felt like such a chore.. It just feels so, discouraging, you know that your weekend is so over, and your only hope is that the next weekend comes fast. Yes, in army, weekends are probably so so so precious to us guys, they are like public holidays.. the feeling of weekends are not the same as while you were studying in poly..

So, that being said, i guess you will understand why my every post will be filled with neverending rants and complaints...

The next 2 weeks are gonna be... TOUGH! I really hope and pray i have enough endurance to make it through..

The past week was ok, only i made a darn stupid mistake and now i have to pay for it, thank God the price to pay is not so much.. I cant believe i made that mistake, i cant believe i was so forgetful.. Wad i did wrong, i dont think i'll post it here, not safe to post it here anyway..

Anyway, i havent really posted about CNY.. This year, CNY passed quite fast.. i enjoyed the few days of holiday, the visiting, the open house at home, i look forward to these things every year.. except this year, it was probably more precious to me..

May i get the red beret fast! May i end my army soon!

I still dunno wad to study, which uni to go to.. its hard to think wad i wanna study..

oh wells...

Argh!! i'm gonna book in soon.. sian sian sian... outfield tmr..

Tiring!

2008-01-20T16:30:00.000+08:00

Tiring! and yet time flies by so slowly.. if only i can make the Good times fly by more slowly and make the times with more Hardship pass by faster.. Camp has been "ok" so far, still bearable.. the tempo is picking up fast.. things are gonna be darn difficult soon.. there are many things on my mind i wanna say, but i dont think i will be able to write it all down here..

Firstly, i dont like going outfield.. haha.. and i am in a vocation which requires us to go outfield ALOT! haha.. i really mean ALOT...

Second, i dont like route marches, and (as far is i know) i am in a vocation which probably requires us to walk the longest, the furthest...

I really dunno whether i can stay in my vocation or be kicked out.. A few weeks ago, i had ideas of just giving up.. cause it takes another 5-6 months of HARD training to win the reward, and i didnt know whether it was worth it.. talked to some friends about it, and finally decided that i will push on through the hardship! decided that i wouldnt quit on my own accord, but if they kick me out of it, so be it.. i dont think i'll have any regrets.. but if i gave up myself, i'll probably have regrets in the future..

One of the officers told us something which i really think is true, and i decided to use it as my pet phrase from now on to motivate myself in training..

"Its NOT whether you Can or Cannot, its whether you WANT or DONT WANT.."

Oh well, enough about army.. I havent bought my CNY clothes! i only have 2 more weekends to shop! HOW?!?

I need to at least get 2 sets of clothes and shoes.. i wanna get jeans too.. A few places i thought of buying from is Zara, Takashimaya, Topman and New Urban Male.. Any other ideas anyone? i might get shoes from Converse..

This year i'm thinking of getting clothes more interesting, more fashionable instead of the semi-formal kinda shirts.. ideas???

hope i get let of early on friday this week.. haha.. fat hope..

Who wanna go shopping next week?

Finished reading my "Darth Bane - Path of Destruction" novel, interesting, waiting for the second book to be out in singapore.. Second book is "Darth Bane - Rule of Two"

AHH! this coming week another field camp.. sian sian sian.. oh well.. like they say: SUCK IT UP!

haha

Book in time is getting earlier and earlier, book out time is getting later and later..

ok, i need to go pack my stuff now..

Shalom!

2008

2008-01-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Yet another year has come to pass. 2007 was a fine year, It was a year of "excitement", mainly cause i entered into the army. When i look back at when i entered the army, i realised that time passes so quickly, it has already been 6 months, 2 parts of army life has passed.. Now its time for the third part of army..

Will be joining the batallion tmr morning, wonder how life will be there.. well, i'll be finding out soon, and you'll probably be reading my whining here..

i'm still pondering on wad to study for my university.. econs? banking and finance? tourism? hospitality? i really dont know.. i'm looking more toward UWA, University of Western Australia..

Hope this year will be a fun, exciting, fast year.. i just wanna end my NS soon.. haha!

Ronan Keating - Lovin Each Day

Holidays over!

2007-12-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

Good times always seem to pass by real fast.. My 1 week block leave is over just by the blink of an eye! It was a good time to just relax from all army stuff, meeting up with friends, slacking at home, shopping for presents for christmas, window shopping around town.. i just love doing these, it just relaxes my mind.. well, it has been 6 months into the army now, another 9 months to go.. My next phase is where the REAL training really starts.. i really hope and pray i can cope up with it..tough training on the way.. Anyway, Christmas was normal, thank God i didnt need to do guard duty on christmas eve! haha.. had another day of leave today, and it was good too, slacked at home! Gonna go back to camp soon though.. graduation from CDO-TI this saturday, where i'll up a rank..

Another good thing about holidays is that i eat and eat, especially during Christmas and CNY.. During Christmas, i love to have my Ham and turkey! haha... i cant go without ham, i will probably whine and whine.. Well, CNY is coming, i think i'll put on more weight, but its ok.. i think i'll burn it off quite fast..

I'm almost halfway through my star wars book! haha.. its quite cool actually, i'm suprised i can read it tt fast.. normally, i would just give up reading any novel at this point in time.. so u can see how interesting this star wars novel is! haha!

Ok, time to go!

Random

2007-12-18T13:17:00.000+08:00

The first few days of my week's holiday has been boring.. stayed at home yesterday, listening to music, packing my room desk, chatting with ppl online, and reading a book i bought on sunday! haha.. something unbelievable, i'm actually reading a novel.. Its the Star Wars, Darth Bane: Path of Destruction

Just completed the first 2 chapters, and its really quite interesting.. cool!

going out later with jon for some shopping! haha.. and tomorrow, gonna catch the "Warlords" with shyam and the guys, looks like a darn good show..

gotta start my Christmas shopping man.. i need ideas!

Holidays!

2007-12-15T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yay! finally, a week's holiday is here! The past 3 months of vocation training has been.. fun.. airborne, boatman, demo.. like some one said, "airphibious bomberman!" learnt alot of stuff over 3 months.. now the vocational training has come to an end, and the 1 week break is well deserved! haha... after this week will be Christmas, den i will be promoted, den new year will come, only then, will "all hell break loose".. haha.. cause will be posted to join the rest of the battalion.

well, i guess i'll just enjoy these 1 to 2 weeks.. PTP batch came in yesterday.. poor thing.. oh well, i was once like them, can understand how they are feeling.. come to think of it, time passes fast.. as of yesterday, i have completed 6 months of army! 25% completed.. another 75%..

This coming week, i wanna go christmas shopping, i wanna watch movie, go sentosa!

ahh.. i think the mozzies love me alot.. they bit me alot last night at the live firing range.. they came like a plague.. on my right hand, i got about 6 bites, on my left hand, i got 5 bites.. guess my blood is just tooo sweet! hahhaa..

KT Tunstall - Other Side Of The World

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an Iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like
the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
Ohh.... the other side of the world
You're.... the other side of the world
To me.

21

2007-11-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

I simply love the end of every year! the end of every year usually means holidays, festive seasons, my birthday!, and a new year coming, which means chinese new year is coming. i love these holidays!

went out with cell mates to celebrate my 21st birthday at hog's breath chijmes last night, it was good! had a fun time fellowshipping with them.. daniel and kris came along too! dinner was good! and we took photos! lots! haha.. too bad dora wasnt there.. aww.. cindy said that 3 of us(eugene, cindy and myself) should take photo and she go home and photoshop dora's face inside! haha.. i enjoyed myself! we also went to gelare to have a drink after that..

Food with Attitude! haha.. i like it...

Group Photo! they complained that my eyes kept closing when taking photos this night.. think i'm just tired after a day's training...

"and the prize goes to..." haha.. thanks for the present guys!

Its beginning to look a little like Christmas! the tree look nice, so we decided to take a photo of it.. it was inside chijmes...

Another Christmas Tree! i love Christmas trees.. they remind me of Christmas! duh...

Jumping for joy shouting: "Christmas is here!".. or so i wished!

Jeanne and I! haha.. the street lights seemed cool, so wanted to take a photo of it.. ah alright, its just an excuse to take more photos! LOL!

Alright, now to photoshop dora into the picture.. haha, we're the photo addicts!

Thats all for now.. booking in to camp tmr nite cause had live firing on saturday.. at least they refunded us a day.. haha!

Alright, now for another of my favourites.. fitting for this day! Enjoy!

Corrinne May - The Birthday Song

Sian!

2007-11-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

hai... fist they decreased our block leave from 4 days to 2 days, den they cancelled our block leave totally and pushed it all the way to december.. then now they take away my christmas eve.. i wonder if they will even take away the block leave in december.. hai.. gotta get used to it man..

anyways, just came back from family dinner at shangrila hotel.. had dinner at "the line" a buffet.. celebrating my birthday! haha.. which is next week.. celebrating it so early cause my sister is going to perth next week.. food was nice.. but i'm damn bloated now.. haha.. eat too much!

ok, gonna log off soon! need to book in tonight!.. sian..

Life's like that!

oh well...

2007-11-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hey, i am back.. but only for a short while.. supposed to have 2 days of block leave from thursday till friday this week, but in the end, the block leave has been shifted forward to december.. weird management, but oh well, what the heck.. when it comes to SAF, expect the unexpected! they love to throw stunts on you..

oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...oh well...

Alexander

Band of Brothers

2007-11-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i just created a Facebook account a few days ago.. please add me if you have an account too.. haha.. Facebook is quite complicating i guess, so many applications.. it is interesting to just look through some applications, but i think after a while, i might get tired of it.. Perhaps i am still more used to friendster.. but nevertheless, i will still use both friendster and facebook..

Started watching the "Band of Brothers".. There are a total of 10 episodes, and i have watched 4 already.. its a good show! like sam told me, i would be able to relate to alot of wad they do.. like the contact drills, and especially becoming a paratrooper, attaining the silver wings...Although a gruesome show, it teaches alot.. Soldiers who go to war must have lots and lots and lots of courage.. i mean, seriously, who isnt scared of war? letting your guard down for a second might kill you, or worse, paralize you..

Well, the past week went past quite fast, perhaps cause of the deepavali holiday on thursday.. This coming week will again be another fast one cause i end my course on wednesday, then my block leave for 2 days will start, from thursday till sunday.. Having a practical test tmr, pray that i will pass it, cause i havent been quite steady in my handling the boat.. pray that i will be confident, and remember and perform all the steps i need to do..

I've been trying to find this song from the movie "The Devil wears Prada", and finally i found the song.. love the song, i might just buy the album.. Great voice! Enjoy!

Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

2007-11-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

This week was fun, but tiring.. riding the boat through the sea is fun, learning how to do the small bits of practical things such as parking the small boat, going up the beach, anchoring and securing is kinda "leh ceh".. and carrying the boat and preparing all the equipment is darn tiring.. haha..

went to vivo city today with family for lunch.. had hairy crabs, yum yum.. went to walk around vivo with sis after tt.. wanted to shop for clothes, but couldnt find anything that nice.. this weekend is kinda boring actually.. I NEED MORE EXCITEMENT!!! i wanna shop more.. i wanna go for holiday overseas! i wanna watch movie! i know i dont like sand, but somehow i have this urge to go sentosa beach to have fun!

hmm... nth much to say today..

Union

Silver Wings

2007-10-28T20:06:00.000+08:00

The photo my sis took of my silver wings.. cool eh? The past week has been quite relaxed.. i realised we havent done exercise for more than a month.. havent ran in a long time man.. boatman course started, the past week has been all lectures, and the coming 2 to 3 weeks will be all out in the sea.. i foresee myself all shagged out everyday.. haha!

Cousin Nelson just got married today.. went to their tea ceremony yesterday.. i like going for wedding dinners/lunches.. ok, not just cos of the food, its just nice seeing ppl get married... u just feel happy for them..

everytime ppl ask me wad am i gonna do for my birthday this year, i say i dont feel like doing anything big.. and they get shocked.. cos its my 21st birthday this year, and ppl would usually expect u to have a big celebration on ur 21st.. haha.. yes, i do love parties, i do love company, but somehow i find it very "leh che" to invite so many ppl, den u have to plan the party, alot of time needed.. den furthermore, i'm currently in NS, also difficult to plan a party, u'll never know when u're gonna need to stay in over the weekend.. and i also dont really like the idea of getting those big sabo, u know, like those they throw u into the pool? or how they try to take off ur shirt and throw flour and water and paint on u.. or how they dress a guy up as a girl.. i find that disturbing...

I guess i'll just settle for dinner with friends, or something.. i will be content..

i think its time to meet up with old friends, spend more time with new friends and so on.. hopefully this Christmas holiday will be a good time for that..

I've been craving to watch movies, but there arent any nice movies out these few weeks i think.. i watched the chinese movie - "Brothers" last week with my sis.. it was an interesting movie, but the ending was so sad.. its one of those movies with morals you're supposed to think about at the end.. i think i'm gonna start investing in some drama serials like "Band of Brothers" or something.. i've been wanting to watch that, although its abit gruesome at some parts..

hai.. tmr have test... it seems that this boatman course i am in now has many tests.. everyweek have 1 or 2 tests..

gotta book in later soon.. sian sian sian..

One of my favourite songs from my favourite group..

The Aftermath

2007-10-14T20:10:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! I'm Alive! haha.. whew! The jump was thrilling, exciting, just like a rollercoaster ride! Well, jumping out of a plane or a helicopter is not something i would normally want to do.. but i did it! 3 times in a week.. Thank God the parachute deployed! The whole experience is good, i would say, the experience of a lifetime.. Well, lemme recall the whole experience.. boarding the plane was nerve wrecking, especially the first time, i really didnt know wad to expect, i didnt know whether i would actually jump out of the plane.. when the plane took off, i had a smile on my face, others would not know whether i was relaxed or nervous, but suddenly i told those around me, "lets sing a song!" haha.. i started singing the army marching songs.. "Jumpmaster say, Go stand by the door! DZ never looked so small, so small before.. Here we go-oooooo", and "If my mane doesnt open wide, i have another one by my side".. It really helped prepared me, and definately together with my frequent prayers to God to give me faith, bravery and courage to take that jump out of the plane, to remember all that i have learnt and apply it, and land safely without getting injured, and not colliding with anyone in midair(something that would be disastrous).. When came the time to jump out, i heeded the advice of my SOTAC OC and shout for whatever equipment check or shouting "RIGHT LEFT RIGHT LEFT!" moving toward the door, it helped! then when the time came for me to jump, i jumped out, IT WAS FUN! especially when u see those before you jumping out, you suddenly feel patriotic and remember the command and conquer games where u send in paratroopers, and just want to jump out! haha..in flight, you dont have much time to think, u only have 45 secs before you land.. so you must steer fast.. the landing is the part where i fear most! u come crashing down.. and if you are not careful, if you do look at the ground, u WILL get injured!

Well, this coming week, i have another 2 more jumps and i will be done with airborne course! this time, i will have to jump with combat equipment.. meaning i will be heavier, meaning i will come crashing down faster! haha.. scary.. pray for me!

This weekend was good! not because bible study was cancelled, but cause i finally went out to town to shop! its been long since i went shopping! love the feeling... went out with my sis on saturday afternoon.. had lunch at paragon bakersinn, their food is good! then went on to buy some stuff.. we also went to hmv heeren, increased my music cd collection.. bought the black eyed peas - elephunk, ronan keating 10 years of hits, and corrine may's new CD called "beautiful seed" i think.. i've decided not to download music, thats why now i am buying the CDs.. It the whole "Say No to Piracy" thing, it appeals to me.. I also bought a belt from NUM! nice.. Interestingly, the guy there was quite helpful.. until he tried to make me buy the berms also! haha.. he said if i buy it, i would be the second one to buy it.. haha! but nah.. i dont need a pair of berms now.. maybe next time.. i wanna get their shirts! their designs are so nice! i've always wanted to own a NUM shirt.. and maybe when i do own one, i would get their berms too.. their shirts really look good with the berms..

Next week gonna have a dental appointment on saturday morning, hope it wont be painful.. cousin's wedding is next week too! haha! cool..

i realised i have really really once again been neglecting alot of friends.. bad feeling whenever i reflect over it... in camp, when we have nights out, when bunk mates ask me out, i always dont wanna go cause i would be so tired and i want an early night's rest so the next morning i will be able to concentrate on the training and not feel so sleepy the next morning.. i think they might be tired of asking me already.. maybe when the next day's training is not so tiring, i will ask them out.. last week i missed my ex-class's bbq chalet! i miss bbqs.. i miss the times in poly where we would have chalets in downtown east.. they were fun! i couldnt go last week cause i had to accompany my grandma at home.. she injured her leg, now shes better.. so sorry to TB06 that i couldnt join y'all.. i'm waiting for our Christmas gathering! hopefully i can make it this time.. Yeewei is so nice, shes taking so much effort to plan gatherings..

I havent decided where i wanna study, and what i wanna study.. most probably going to study in perth.. i'm thinking between business, tourism or hospitality, and i'm looking at UWA.. who wants to study there also, maybe can apply with me.. haha... i'm still open for other choices, still deciding what course to study and where... will monash be a better choice? hmm.. (in deep thought...)

ok, i gotta go prepared myself now for booking in.. Yet another week of military life.. i dont love it, i dont dread it.. i just want to get it over and done with.. i wanna earn that red beret with respect..

Silver Wings upon my chest...

Updates

2007-09-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

The past few weeks has been rather "relaxed" as compared to my days in bmt.. i'll say comparable to my ptp days.. Well, for a start, let me first say that i managed to complete the 24km route march without getting abrasions, and without wanting to give up.. it was quite an enjoyable "walk", with all of us shouting our voices singing while walking, running past traffic junctions as if charging for the enemy shouting "ahhh...".. it was fun, and the day ended with my POP ceremony, and i was officially a "private". i got my jungle hat, its nice...

The block leave for us was only 4 days as compared to those in tekong where they have like more than a week? well, i wont complain tt much anyway, cause i know we had other benefits through our bmt..

The week after we came back from our block leave, we had other programmes.. we had to go to tekong to learn navigations.. i dont really like going to tekong.. it reminds me of the 8 days field camp.. of course this time its not difficult.. the rest of the week was slack, we just did saikang in camp, we slacked off in our bunks and packed our bags to prepare to transfer to another camp.. The following week on wednesday was when we left for another camp for our airborne course..

Yes, i have started my airborne course, and it is tiring.. very tiring.. right now, my body is aching.. The very thought about myself jumping out of a plane is simply thrillingly uncomfortable...i mean, who is not scared? everyone would be.. but it must be done nonetheless... well, as they say "For Honour and Glory"

About to book into camp soon.. This will be another tiring week, hopefully i'll be able to do all the drills without any problems..i pray i wont get sick, pray i wont get injured, pray i wont ache so much, pray i'll pass the airborne course...

God Loves You...

2007-09-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

Alright.. so i know i havent been updating this blog for some time now.. hmm.. last time i updated it was when PTP was coming to an end, that was like, 2 months ago or so.. Now, thats long! time passes fast.. indeed it does.. now BMT is coming to and end.. in about 2 week's time..

The past 2 months was indeed interesting, especially when it came to the peak of my BMT about 3 weeks ago, when i was having my 8-days field camp.. the 8-days field camp in tekong was tough i must say, but manageable.. It was not something i would volunteer to sign up willingly such as DNA camp and iDARE camp in my poly days.. those were the fun days, and i miss them.. in this field camp, i set the personal record of not bathing for 6 days, and not shitting for 7 days! imagine that.. It felt weird not to shit for 7 days.. like, am i human or what? haha.. lotsa things to say for field camp, but i wont write it here.. Well, the summary of it all is, i realised what a comfortable life i have at home.. even my bunk felt so good! seriously..

I finally passed my IPPT and SOC! got a silver for IPPT! Now i have to worry about my Basic Airbourne Course Selection Test.. failed the trial test.. And hopefully, they put me in a vocation i like.. and no, i am not aiming to go to the leader course..

and hopefully i can sustain for the route march just before the POP in 2 weeks time..

ok, gotta go now.. booking in today..

Update!

2007-07-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

PTP is coming to an end soon, in a week's time.. haha, my running has not improved whatsoever! haha.. sian.. and now my left leg has some pain, for over a week now.. dunno what issit.. and everytime i will dread when they give the command "dari kiri ankat malari chepat lari"..

tomorrow is my turn to be IC.. haha... hopefully wont get tekan so much.. although i know sure get pumping somehow..

yesterday was 07.07.07! went for 2 weddings. My cousin's wedding at their house itself, and Daniel's wedding at ritz carlton! it was good. daniel's wedding was quite big, so many ppl! i think 60 tables plus! after tt went out to meet bunk mates to play pool, we're gonna split soon, tmr changing room, friday when the new bmt ppl come in, tts where half of us will split.. sad.. but thinking of it in the bright side, we will meet more friends!

yup, now gotta go prepare for book in.. bye!

The First Bookout

2007-06-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hello! haha.. suprised? i'm back home! but only for 1 and half days. yup, didnt need to stay in camp over this weekend. haha.. maybe only when the actual bmt starts, den we will need to be confined there 2 weeks.

PTP is so far so good, bunk mates are cool.. can get along! my running and pull up still cannot make it! i pray i will improve soon man... i wanna put in my effort, so i wont suffer so much in bmt. haha.. hope i wont kenna drop/kick out man!

yup, i wanna get more rest now.. nitey nites peeps!

PREPARE FOR GLORY!!!

2007-06-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

Ah! so the time has finally come... the time where i have to enlist into the army. My term will be 2 years, starting with a 4 weeks PTP(physical training phase, cause i failed napfa), den BMT, den the actual training.. i am posted straight to the Commando Unit.. i dunno whether to be happy or to be sad la.. hopefully meet good friends.. and hope my life in there will not be so bad..

I will be enlisting tomorrow at 8am! so darn early man.. haha... so i must go to bed early.. hopefully i have packed everything i need to bring..

I must say, i am so happy the past few days.. had my graduation on monday, everything went well i guess, only tt i dunno whether i looked into the camera while on stage.. we really looked like we are from Hogwarts school of magic la, the gowns looks a little cool.. but i think can look better... the design a little boring.. had dinner with my year 2 classmates at TCC in Holland V.. it was fun getting back together!

Had a ex-Sat-BS gathering yesterday.. Cindy said it was a farewell for me(going into army), derek(going mission trip to mongolia) and eugene chong(mission trip to thailand).. haha.. had dinner at New York New York at City Link mall.. it was fun taking photos and all... i had a whole spring chicken! it was nice.. the soup there wasnt nice though.. disappointed.. oh well..

Alvin, Eunice and Eugene just came over to my house to pass me a gift and to pray for me... The gift was a quiet time material for my time in NS.. thanks man!

Ahh.. 11pm liao.. i think i wanna go sleep now so can wake up early tmr..

Byebye y'all, and see you in 2 weeks time when i book out!

Alexander

2007-06-12T15:02:00.000+08:00

cause what you did to me i did to you...

2007-06-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

Went to pok mun's father's wake the past 2 days at jalan kukoh there with cindy and dora. In some areas i pity him, but in more areas, i envy him... I pity him because he is the only son, and also because i dont think his family is quite stable with their finances, and also that his family has been outcast from his relatives because his family has converted to become disciples of Christ.

However, it is also exactly these reasons that i envy him, and more.. he is the only son, yet he is so filial to his parents, he is able to take in all the stress when all these has happened, he doesnt complain despite all these events... His family is having problems with finances, yet he understands that there is more to life than just money, he understands that God is in the centre of his family's life, and because of that, he trusts in God, and become strong, and eventually does not let money become a problem to him (how many of us can actually do this?)His relatives on his father's side has abandoned his family because of their belief in Christ, and yet he is so forgiving, and leaves everything to God, he does not blame his relatives, or God.

Despite all these "problems" he faces, he still finds rest in God, he continues to have faith in God. He uses this testimony, and shares it to many during the time of the wake.. it was touching.. real touching...

i wont say any further about it, cause i am speechless...

anyway, boonhui and huishan, whom i met through the KL mission trip a few months back have come to visit singapore yesterday till today.. some of us met them both for chit chat.. it was a good time catching up..

watched shrek 3 with dora and cindy today, i think the show was darn funny.. storyline was so so, but since it was so lame, i kinda liked it alot! haha.. and cindy was there the whole time laughing like mad, i think the whole cinema can hear her... funny la..

Tomorrow's graduation! and friday's enlistment.. sian sian sian sian sian...

Rants

2007-06-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today was a boring day, went to collect my spare specs from the optical shop, and bought some "one day" contact lens as well... haha, for my grad ceremony, cause i have no more contact lenses.

Went out with the Monkey gang plus someone else last night as a farewell party for AK! he has entered to army this afternoon.. We had dinner at the row of shops opposite beauty world, ate at this shop called "5 stars".. food was ok.. thanks Zen for the treat! den we went to play LAN, played something i am really bad at, "Battlefield".. haha, i was always the lousiest... come to think of it, i have always not been real good at games, any kind of games, even those i like.. for eg, Generals.. though i like it, i still lose when i fight against my friends.. haha! but wad does it matter rite? its all in the name of FUN! we den went to macdonalds to have some shaker fries, yum yum.. i like shaker fries!

I wanna watch movie! Shrek 3, and other shows! b4 i enlist next friday...

haiz.. it really amazes me how some ppl never fail to discourage me, no matter wad the circumstances, whether they are in the good mood, or bad mood.. and if i do voice it out, i am deemed as sensitive... like, what the heck? When i ask you, "whats the problem?", you tell me not to ask you. when i tell u my problems, u say i am sensitive.. is that the definition of a friend? you make me wonder if u ever did consider me as a real friend... you also seem not to bother much about how i feel everytime u conjure up a certain action, u seem to take my feelings for granted.. you always make so much friggin noise when i do something u dont like, making me sound like such an evil person, the bad person..

You have too much pride my friend, you always say they are in the wrong, but why dont u look at yourself, and ask if u can be forgiven?, rather than asking if u can ever forgive them? rather than always thinking you have so many ppl backing you up? that it doesnt really matter if you have lost one friend, cause you have too many to spare? what are we taught?

Ephesians 4:2 - Be COMPLETELY humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

Ask yourself if you are showing humbleness, and patience, and love.

What is love?

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

i think u need to read these 4 verses over and over and over again...

think about it... i wont say anymore..

i just needed to vent my frustration... have been feeling rather down the past 1 week... but in front of some "friends", i have been trying to keep it in and not make such a big thing out of it..

In the end, no one is perfect, i am definately not perfect, i have my faults.. its up to ppl to advise me on how to become a better person.. i realised that sometimes, i do need to rely on my friends for help... thats wad friends are for rite? but right now, it still is tough to rely on some ppl.. but slowly, i will learn...

Ah... another thing that is mind boggling now, should i change BS group to the one Cindy is opening? or should i stay at the current one? am thinking quite hard now...asking myself wad issit i really want in a BS group b4 i even consider changing...

ok, tt was a long post.. if there is any part in my post anyone of you agree or dont agree, or object to strongly, feel free to post your comments under the "comments" section of this post...

Good night!

Breaking Free

2007-06-05T01:47:00.000+08:00

I love this song so much... it just motivates me alot, somehow...

Countdown to Slavery

2007-06-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

Finally changed my blogskin, think there was some problem with the previous blog skin... decided to use a simple blogger.com template, cause easier to use, the blogskin wont always disappear, layout easier to see...

Anyway, the past week was normal for me. Last saturday, 26 may, was eu gene and estella's wedding, it was fun, took alot of photos and so on.. met up with alvin for dinner on monday and talked alot about different stuff, and as usual, his trademark of talking in circles is still there, which is good in a way, makes u think... watched "28 weeks later" with cindy on wednesday, i dont really understand the show cause i probably nv watched the first show... Watched pirates with my family on thursday, did not understand everything, probably cause i didnt understand the 2nd show, haha.. bought a non-camera phone for my NS, looks good..

Went for the education fair at Carlton hotel on friday with AK and Johnston, about some universities.. there wasnt many university's booths there.. took some prospectuses and asked some question at the Edith Cowan University booth and went to suntec with them both for the PC show.. had a fun time meeting up with them, AK enlisting this week. oh well..

Had worship practise on saturday and worship leader was samuel soh.

Talked with cindy last night on the phone about 13 june overnight mahjong gathering at my place, planned wad to do... in the end, we decided to have dinner at clarke quay, go to some bar which cindy says looks like a hospital, den go my house for mah jong, den supper...

was looking through the university propectuses last night, and am probably choosing between UWA and ECU if i only wanted to study in western australia...

ahh! time passes so fast! i am enlisting into the army next friday! darn.. another 11 days... everyone has been telling me to train my running, but i am so friggin lazy to go out and run.. die! haha..

oh well, better have fun in my last few days of freedom! haha..

2007-05-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

Dora and Cindy came to my house today to BAKE cookies to give to Eu Gene and Estella! Too bad Eugene Chong cannot come... it was fun, and the cookies turned out great! suprise suprise!

Today is the 25 May 2007, and guess wad? we commemorate the day where I passed driving.. yea! its been 1 year! passed my driving on the 25 May 2006... I am not officially OUT of probation, no more triangle plate hanging in the car! yea! absense of "P" plate is equivalent to absence of being vulnerable to more road bullies! haha... dont you think so?

i wanna watch pirates of the carribean! who wants to watch with me?

2007-05-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

Haha, decided to update since i have not updated my blog for quite some time...now just chatting with some friends...

countdown to the actual date is fast... 3 more weeks and time for the army! not that excited positively or negatively.. havent done many things, like buy a non camera handphone, etc... nvm, i will procrastinate longer, haha, just like my 3 years procrastination of running... i was telling someone that during my vocation as a commando, i will take wadever that comes my way, if they decide that i should be downgraded to something like a clerk, so be it, i dun mind, haha, less shiong.. if they do decide that i should continue as a commando, den so be it, means more effort needed... haha! die!

last week went out with cindy, dora and eugene for cycling.. we had new nicknames.. dora is the Ms President(cause she dunno how to cycle that well, so she had 2 guys, eugene and myself to excort her), eugene and myself are called the Presidential Aides... den cindy was always going far ahead while 3 of us were behind, so she is called the Seeker (to see if got any dangers ahead)... hahaha! they came to my house after that to pay mahjong! hahaha... it was fun... hope we can play again before i enter the "Force"...

Watched Phantom of the Opera on saturday afternoon with my family... it was good! however, i prefered the one i saw the first time, in 1993 i think...Nevertheless, The Phantom of the Opera is still the BEST musical ever... the BEST Opera! Money well spent... Costumes were so nice and colourful, props were so nice.. but the chandeliar was a letdown... haha... the voices was also a letdown.. especially Christine's voice, not good enough, couldnt reach the high notes, i felt.. haha... oh well... it was still good overall...

Why so many ppl dun wanna go graduation? so sad man.. some say its a waste of time... others just feel lazy to go... haiz.. i think graduation is a time where you can share the pride of graduating, after all the 3 years of fun you have been through together... its just an experience that i feel one should not miss, even if you have to wear a gown that looks a little weird... yes, this year, the polytechnic is introducing a new graduation gown, so we are the first batch to use it... i dunno, maybe it will look nice...

Oh ya, CONGRATS TO SYDNEY on passing the Driving practical test!

I need to exercise, who wants to exercise with me?

Good night!

2007-05-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

back from vietnam! it was interesting to experience the life there. nothing much to talk about there now, maybe on another post soon..

argh, gg army soon man... die!

A few friends of mine have been rather down lately, i roughly understand why, though not to the full extent of their problems.. i realised that i find it tough to give advice, therefore i shant. however, i am always open to give my listening ear, or even my listening voice. if u need it, just come to me...

there are many things on my mind, i want to write it here, tough it is not politically correct, and i am 100% sure that if i do write it down here, there will be problems... therefore, i will not write it.

I used to want this blog to be somewhere where i can post anything i want, freely.. and air my thoughts about anything freely, but now i come to know that is difficult. You will always have these people who, if they think you are talking about them, they will want u to take it out of your blog. i wont say so much, cause i was like tt too last time.. sensitive...

This is a song from one of my favourite singers, and i want to give it to the few of my friends who are currently feeling emotionally uncomfortable...

I think we've been here before
I recognize this place
I've seen the marks of confusion
wipe out a single sign of grace
And I don't want to play anymore
Not when the stakes are so high
So before we circle round once more
I'm gonna lay down,
Lay down my pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

I turn on the TV
and it screams out at me
Nothing seems to have changed
since the start of Adam and Eve
So we're waiting for the sky to fall
and we're buying brand new toys
But before we circle round once more
Can we lay down
Just lay down this pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
Don't go wasting your emotions
No one wins if we keep score
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

2007-04-27T14:37:00.001+08:00

The letter finally came... and upon tearing up the letter (cause i find those letters extremely tough to open), i found out that my date of enlistment is 15 June(Friday), 8.00am... Guess where? Special Operation Tactics Centre.. Now whats that? its the long form for "Commandos"...

Alex, you are so dead... totally physically UN-fit(note that i failed NAPFA test, problem is running, 2.4 is 15+ mins), although medical history is clean, have 3 other brothers for the singapore government to spare...

Going in 4 weeks earlier for PTP, cause i FAILED NAPFA, followed by a 9 week BMT... how sian is that? but nevertheless, i try to look on the bright side, at least i will be getting some allowance(though a small sum), i will get physically more fit, although i will suffer through the whole course... yes, my BMT is not in Tekong like most guys, i will go through specialised Commando BMT.

I am feeling a little nervous, but will do my best to remain calm... haha... i will try not to kill myself or get killed "ACCIDENTLY" in the army, as they would probably call it, due to the tough training.

I was thinking about the training phase where i would not be able to sleep at all for a period of 5 days or so.. do they call it "Hell week" or something? would i be able to take it? will i get OOC(out of course)? i certainly wouldnt want to... i am starting to feel the thrill of jumping out of the plane in the sky, parachuting down... ahhh... the thrill of it all..

Nevertheless, i aim to go as high as possible in the ranks... but if i do get downgraded for any reason whatsoever, so be it... that is just how i try to calm myself down, not getting to nervous about it all - Just accept whatever may come my way...

I guess i just like to think of myself as a "Chameleon", the ability to adapt to any situation whatsoever... that is probably one of the reasons why you might sometimes wonder why i dont get too suprised or shocked in most circumstances.

Well, 2 years or so, i will be training to be a Commando, if nothing will stand my way... haha.. As Dr Sydney would call it: "The Elite Red Beret"...

I just hope i dont get too brainwashed with any propaganda that might come my way in there, and that i wont get too weird as my sister and some others say, "those who go commandos, come out the thinking always become weird"... perhaos its the training... Well, that has just got to do with mindpower, i like to think my mind is strong, therefore, i will not be affected too much by what happens in there.. but we will see, wont we...

Anyway, enough about the army... I have just started reading another novel, a series of novel, to be exact, a children's novel. The Chronicles of Narnia. I found the movie rather interesting, and so i wanted to find out more, and i knew we had the series at home, so i took it out 2 days ago and started reading. Interesting... I just completed the first book.

The series REALLY is about the bible you know... afterall, the author was a christian... CS Lewis, a famous Christian writer.. i'm impressed actually, with his writing... calming, and peaceful...

Do note that i rarely read novels, cause i just have no patience to read them.. so in the near future, u wont be seeing me reading any inhumanly thick books with small prints, which my sister do read.. she is not human... HAHA... I guess i cant be a lawyer, looking at their crazily thicker than thickily thick law books with small prints inside.

Therefore, for now, i will stick with children's novels. Now what is wrong with that? i dont see any flaw or weirdness in that, so if you so happen to think i am childish, or have a weird mind, cause i am reading a CHILDREN'S novel, i say, you go sit on your bed an re-think what you are thinking... haha...

Oh well, decided i will not work for the rest of my time till army comes, want to relax!!! go out! have fun! watch movies! shopping! EAT EAT EAT!!! Of course it is also with other reasons/excuses that i dont want to work. many reasons as it is all stated in my organiser...

Yup, tomorrow morning going to Auntie Soon Eng's clinic(near City Hall MRT) to check the progress of the healing of my wound in my mouth, where once stood my wisdom tooth. Then after, i'm going to walk around that area myself, if anyone wants to meet me up for coffee or something, do tell me... my check up is at 11, i'll probably be done by 12, if not, sooner... then i will walk/window shop. But i do have to leave for my bible study which is at 4, so, i'll have to leave by 3pm.

Yup, thats it for now.. will update more soon...

2007-04-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

Whee-ew! Finally got my wisdom tooth extracted today! it was scary, a little pain, but overall, it was fine... now theres this stitch in my mouth which i will have to bear with for the next 1 week.

The past week was ok, parents went to taiwan, and sister went for HK for a week for business. I had the car to myself, went to help out with campus crusade recruitment in school. not something i would usually do, but i went anyway, cause i was so free. i had all the time i needed... one of the days i drove to school, den the car had problem! haha, so scary la, smoke came out... den i became kanchiong spider... i brought it to the Shell station, den they told me the pressure pipe burst.. haha.. wear and tear.. it cost like $420 la.. wah piang.. EXpensive!

The week after came back from mission trip, 4 of us (Zen, AK, Clare, and myself), went out. either played LAN or something.. we played Generals...BOY, am i outta touch... Anyway, it was fun having fun with them! We are the Monkeys!!!

Sat BS finally started again, i have been going regularly, and it is sad to see the group shrink so badly, like, the last one was like, 6 ppl including the leader. used to be like 20 ppl each BS... nevertheless, lesser ppl means more concentration on each individual.

still trying to find a part time job till i enlist, so if any of u got lobang, please tell me! haha.. wanna work for about 1 month.

Anyway, tts all i have for today, wanna rest now.. c'yall...

2007-04-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

My sister has set up an online store selling earrings and stuff... do visit it!

Link: www.quaintcandy.etsy.com

2007-04-04T15:55:00.000+08:00

Ahh... i'm back from Malaysia after a 15 days mission trip.. or rather, i would call it a retreat... haha... not that its relaxing, but it really gives me time for my mind to rest from certain things, and to concentrate on other more important stuff.. haha.. its was a great time there, we "allied" with the "Campus Crusade" there, they called it "Campus Life Connection", CLC in short.

Was there for 15 days, did street witnssing almost everyday,through mainly 2 mediums, the university itself (UPM), and the Hostel. My partner was Zen. And there was one night where we went around our "apartments" to share.. It was a great experience. In singapore, i always escape street E, cause i did not dare to witness, and i was scared of ppl asking me questions i did not know how to answer... but this time in malasia, i had to share in mandarin! haha... well,i did not share the 4 SL in chinese, Zen did, but whatever questions they asked in chinese, i answered back in chinese... haha... cool... I did share the 4 SL in english too.. the experience was good!

Singapore nite went on fine... timing everything was good... ppl said that programme was touching... Praise the Lord!

Met many new friends, like Xiao Tian, Agnes, Hui Gei, Margaret, Phoebe, and so on...

Wont say too much in this post, but overall, the whole trip was a blessing to me...

2007-03-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

Woke up today with with an anxious heart as i checkedmy handphone to see whether results were out yet. it was 8-something... so i saw my handphone, and thee my results were.i looked with amazement... my best sem of all 6 sems... gpa was 3.7something something somthing... but gradutig gpa only 3.1something..oh well... at least i did well for this sem...

after that went to esplanade for personal retreat with the KL mission trippers, then had lunch, then they came my house for a time of relaxation. played ps2, watched movies, some played the drums, the rest played foosball...we watched the high school musical...i watched it so many times already, but still not tired of it. nice! love the songs. went out with them for dinner just now...

KL mission trip is next monday... not all prepared yet...

wanted to renew my passport yesterday, went lavender with clarence and ak, when i was there, they said my passport need to apply the new one, cause expiring in may this year. thank God i went yesterday man... else cannot go kl already... it take about 5 working days to make. so i need to go back on saturday to collect it.

I finally bought an MP3 player, my first mp3 player. its a Creative Zen V Plus. good size... bought it at the IT fair last week...

ok, thats it for today...

2007-03-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

Today had a meeting with Gen 12ii team. it was good, explained the skit, asked for improvements... but well, i guess we cant think of many improvements until we actuallly do the actual rehearsal. Then we had to learn the "4SL" in mandarin... hha! madness... i was indeed struggling.

Not much to update about today. meanwhile, still have to raise alot of funds for the trip! haha...

Tmr may be going out wih friend cause have to buy birthday present for someone. haha, but not confirmed yet, he havent replied me...

tts all... for now...

2007-03-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ahh... so Chinese new yar is over... and guess wad!!! i gained 5 KG! this is crazy man...i gotta start training...

I watched the movie "The Protege" about 2 weeks ago i think... and it was a very nice show i must say, filled with meaning... one of the good hong kong shows i have seen... And today, i went ot with some of the serve cambodia mates for a post community service with the old folks to marina square to watch a movie "Just Follow Law"... interesting i must say, but there were some parts i think were boring... of course, just like all other Jack Neo films, there was a meaning behind the whole show, and it was meaningful, and touching... no spoilers here, sorry.

Had Prom nite like last thursday nite, it was ok only la... perhaps cause not all whom i wished to be there, were there... yes, i was happy to dine with my year 2 classmates, and yes, i was happy to see my fellow ex-SCOs, but still, there as an emptiness... oh well, photos soon... (if i get them)

Then i went for my 2nd NS medical check up at Pasir ris camp. It was ok, but it took so friggin long, almost the whole day...

Gen 12ii team has been going along well so far, meetings have been good. Although i have not raised enough funds to go for the trip... i need to raise $580 for the trip! haha, so if you are willing to be a part of this trip by donating, please do let me know!

So, time for reflection...

Sometimes when i look at some people i know, i really wonder what is it they really want? i just feel the need to blog about this, i just need to get this out of myself, or its like i cant breathe.. haha... some peeps are just kinda too confused... especially in their blogs, ya know? like, their always talking about te same thing... i wont say wad it is, wanna keep this kinda discreet... and then there are those always blaming other people, i mean, i do that sometimes, but i also eventually lay the blame back on myself... i always ask, "what is it about me that can be changed", and not always "why is this person, or this group of people always like that?"... that is just plain selfish...

Then again, maybe i should just just lower my expectations on people, just as i want people to lower their expectation of me. Because it wont be too fair to demand a certain attitude from someone... everyone has their ways of reacting to different situations...

Tmr have another meeting, so gotta go to bed soon...haha...

Nitez...

2007-02-22T12:13:00.000+08:00

WOW! What a tiring CNY! have beenquite busy these few days wth visiting, gatherings a my home, dinners and stuffs... great to catch up with relatives.. some i see only like less than 5 times a year, or some even only once a year... haha... i love CNY, eve better than Christmas i guess... haha, i love the "yu sheng" which i seem to have hated when i was younger, cause of all the veggies...

today gonna go out with some friends... later i guess...

argh, my com is gonna die soon... but i cant find time to backup my data... my keyboard buttons abit difficult to press the letters, screen's flickering, batterries time span is 10 mins instead of the original 2h30mins, sound system's too soft, software is lagging like *beep*, haha... should i get another laptop, or just a PC?

Anyways, looking forward to the rest of CNY, guess wad! i hae gained like 4 KG over the past 1 week... sian... haha... dunn when i'm going in army yet...

been reading ths comic which belong's to my sister... its called "The last man" by Vertigo... vry entertaining book... i love comics...or rather "graphic novels", haha...my new hobbie...

i wanna watch a movie! who wants to watch? haha...

i need to start exercising too, who can be my exercising buddie?

i realised my camera is spoilt, gotta gt a new one soon, wonder which model is good...

should i get a mp3 player? creative or iPod?

i needa get a new handphone, one without a camera function, for army...

oh well... so many things... haha... i applied for Uni, both NUS and NTU, havent paid NTU yet, cause i dunno whether should get appraisal fom teachers... dunno who to ask... in this dilemma... maybe should just apply for it without appraisal... I din sign up for SMU cause i did not take A math... the barrier... haha... oh wells...

i like my hair colour...

that will be it for today.... cant think of anymore updates at the moment although there are alot to be said which have not been said yet...

2007-02-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

Yea! Exams are finally over! really didnt have a good time studying for those papers... so much theory la.. and 2 modules were like common sense modules, but thing is, aot of concepts and thory to remember... haha... i hate theory! 2 weeks of suffering after a 1 month of torture of projects...seriously not fun... hahaha... but now i am so happy... everything is over! haha...

went hoe after the last paper for a short rest, den went to do my hair at plaza singapura... dyed it... but he cutting abit weird... oh well, always happy to try something new...i'm hapy with the colour... went with joel, dongyi, leon, khamal, sisi to zouk/phuture at nite... time of fun, partying after the exams... i was kinda tired actually... haha...

den today wnt to do my last minute shopping of clothes at takashimaya... decided to try something new, rather den always wearing those semi-formal t-shirts every year... got bored of it... so this year, bought a polo-t... many ppl say i lack of polo t-shirts... so yea... trying it out...

darn... spent alot these 2 days... my hair, my clothes... haha, time to replenish my bank account...getting bankrupt soon...

had a reunion dinner together with the rest of the "Tangs" at this chinese restaurant at Tower Club... nice food... Uncle Kin Fei's treat to the whole family... haha...

Tmr, Chinese New Year! so fast, one year has past... this week, gonna have lotsa things going on, open house at my home, dinners, meeting with my mission trippers.... haha... gonna have fun fun fun...

ayway, gotta go now... so HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!

2007-02-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

The final presentation for my poly life is over, and now i am left with the final individual report, which is due on monday. hope i can finish it on time. And after that, i will be time to start on my studying for the exams...

Ahh, so sian, i dunno whether can go smu, cause i dont have A math. how how how?

What am i gonna do after i graduate, and before army? haha, should i work? hmm... i dunno man...

ust received a letter from the cmpb yesterday, asking me to go report to pasir ris camp on 2 march for another medical check up... sian... my friends say that means i'm a potential candidate for Commandos... haha... and poor Jonathan, he need to report to sembawang camp, meaning naval divers, haha...

oh well, i'll leave everything to God to decide... haha...

2007-01-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

A long time since my last post, and i just changed my blogskin... something simple... was very busy with school stuff, one thing after another for the past 3 weeks or so...projects, roadshow, more projects... currently, i have like 2 more presentations to go, and 1 more individual report to complete (of which i havent started, due on monday).

hmm... a song... perhaps? What hurts the most?

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2007-01-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

darn! i actually wrote a darn long post, and i dunno what i pressed, and it all disappeared! haha...anyway, will just summrise now...

week has been busy, lots of projects... done with 2 presentations, and the resume...

went for the NS medical checkup, it was ok... posted to pes A... i dunno whether to laugh or to cry.. haha... the IQ test was a waste of time... haha! althoughi dunnohow to do alot! oh well...

went to watch curse of the golden flower with my family, it was great, inspiring, lots of meanings, fascinating...one of the best chinese shows i have watched...

tts all!

2007-01-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

A time of reflection over 2006...

2006 has been quite a busy year for me, although not as busy at 2005, cause i was not involved in so many things. Well, the year started off while i was still in my year 2 sem 2, and struggling with CMA! haha... cost and management accounting! difficult module... I remembered the times when i did projects with my year 2 classmates - soolan, jasmine, yeewei, weeteng, those times when we used to stay back in school tll quite late, latest i recalled was about 10.30pm... to chiong projects... memorable...

I remembered at the beginning of the year also when i was involved in the baoc'06 as an SCO, together with melissa and shaoping, the many fun times, and even bad times there was emotionally... however, i felt it ended off well, and i made a few friends, such as Rai, Mai, and strengthened my friendships with Joy and Ifah, while we painted the banner...

I also remembered the time where i chionged alot of driving lessons, and failed on my first attempt of my traffic police test... and how i hated to visit BBDC as it gave me the very sian feeling...The memorable time was when i passed my driving on the 25 May 2006.

I reember the time when i got invoved in planning the sat bs retreat with Cindy... there were good and bad times in this... of course, once again, emotional times... and times where i felt disappointment in certain things...and also discouragement...

In april, i started on my year 3 as a specialised student in Marketing, and my class got posted to singpost so that we can market their product - MyStamp. I also dunno how i got myself into another mess, i became the social rep committee which was supposed to plan things for the marketing students...

like i earlier said, May was the time i passed my driving, it was also the time whichi made the decision to join the Serve Cambodia team...

June was the time my family moved to our new home at happy ave, after about 16 years in tai hwan drive. Still feeling a little nostalgic of my previous home... many memories from there... lived there almost my whole life...

In spetember, i got involved with the IMF, as an usher at the esplanade, where they had the official reception tere at night. fun... End of sept till oct was when i went to Cambodia with my school, and there, we did some humanitarian work with some orphanages... it was memorable once again. learnt many things.

In November, it was when my parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary in a restaurant, and invited their close friends...I also celebrated my birthday during this month. Another commitment i made was to the open house for the BA CARES... where i am supposed to set up a booth to promote both BA CARES, and entrepreneurship...

In December, the last month, had a few gatherings to celebrate Christmas, from my present class of TB12, year 2 class of TB06, sat BS gathering, Scanwell christmas party, Yearly relative christmas gathering...

Also made the decision to attend the Metamorphosis conference, and it was a bang! it was refreshing, fascinating... i was happy and did not regret signing up for it... I made another decision to go on a mission trip to KL during march/april 07... a step of faith...

And finally, during the last day of the year, had a potluck dinner in church, and and midnight service...

Overall, this whole year has been fruitful... Although there were some disappointments with certain people, i guess i have grown to be stronger... i guess thats good, although its difficult not to be emotional at times...

Even as i look forward to this new year, a time where i am gonna end my poly life, and start a new life in the army, i dunno whether to be happy or sad... really... i do hope and pray i will not suffer so much in the army...

And now, a song to end it all off...

Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.

Cast me not away from Thy presence, O Lord
and take not Thy Holy Spirit from me.
Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation,
and renew a right spirit within me.

2006-12-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

ever had the feeling that u were tired, both physically, and mentally, and for some, even spiritually? i dunno y, but today, i felt mentally tired... physically, i was tired too, i know y, cause i went for a little exercise... but mentally? i really dunno... seems like many things stirring up in my mind... i dunno y... i just feel tired of things, and perhaps, maybe even some people... i dunno y... i really dont... i feel this sense of wanting to "avoid" some ppl... someone please tell me y...

ahh... lost... confused...

2006-12-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

as i said in my previous post, theres much to be said... however... as the song goes...

"lets start at the very beginning, a very good place to start..."

Projects were finally over! for the time being, until 1 week's time, when i will start again... more projects...

my week have been quite good, quite slack, although the common test week. So lucky to have ONLY 1 paper... LAM (Leisure and Attractions Management), it was ok, so so... sure can pass i think, dunno whether can score... i spent my weekend and monday studying, being a good boy, and tuesday morning - the test... Well, other specialisation ppl will say marketing so few papers, so slack, but hey, we have lotsa projects kay?

After the test, went out with joel,dong yi, and de hong, to vivo, wanted to watch movie, but no slots available, so we went to have a sishi feast at harbour front sakae! buffet! haha... joel and myself ate the least, we counted the plates, and like, so paiseh la, everytime the waiter came, want to clear my plates away, i said, no thanks... all cause we wanted to compete who ate the mostat the end... we were childish, but for the sake of FUN! after the test...whos cares man...den joel brought dongyi and me to his keppel club to play snooker... haha... fun..

today i just slacked at home, playing game on my laptop the whole day, oh and i finally have the chance to wake up late... haha... after so long... felt so lazy...

tmr will be going out my my mum and brothers and grandma for lunch at some steamboat place...haha... finally! i love steamboat man... will be going to the dentist also...

the last 2 weeks of dec, gonna be a little busy with some parties...class gathering, scanwell office gathering, relative gathering, sat bs gathering, new year's eve yearly pot luck dinner in church(dunno whether i should go)...ok, i needa start going out sourcing for presents... haha...

ok, so now, down to wad i've been thinking...

these few weeks, especially now, i've been thinking, reflecting, reproaching on this certain term, we use all so often, especially on teenagers, as a warning... "unequally yoked", taken from this verse in Corinthians... well, i have tried giving excuses to bend away from this biblical reality, but i always end up being stuck back to round one, of being certain that i cannot be in any way, of unequal yoke... i guess my mentor will probably understand what i am talking about... struggling...

havent been meeting up with my mentor for so long... i guess he is pretty darn busy with "mentist"... we seriously need to meet up soon... and talk about certain issues...

oh, i signed up for GEN12ii! going to KL next march to april for mission trip! haha... interesting eh, my first mission trip ever... wonder how i'm gonna raise support...

i'm missing lotsa my friends... i know i'v been neglectful to some... haha... so bad of me.. sorry to those that i have neglected... i dont mean to be like tt...

Anyway, i cant recall other things i want to say at the moment... so till next time, those thoughts will be left lingering in my mind, somewhere...
that is the reason...the only reason...

2006-12-11T01:55:00.000+08:00

Test is coming in a days time... tuesday... i really hope i can do well in this since i only have 1 paper... den can really push up my grades... haha...

have alot to say here and now, yet i cant recall what i have to say... perhaps cause i'm tired... perhaps will update again when test is over...

2006-12-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

2006-12-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Things are not what they seem...
dont be sad
i remember the time where i used to jump to conclusions so many times... not saying that i dont now, but the situations is clearly better now... What am i talking about? Well, sometimes there can be many miscommunications among people, and things can get really nasty after a while if it is not solved... i am, at this moment, not pointing toward a particular group of people. However, i just wanna emphasis on the point that? what good would it do you to jump to conclusions? lets not talk about forgiving and forgetting, because that is the 2nd step... however, by jumping to conclusions, you are jumping to the 3rd or 4th step. and jumping too much can make you dizzy, and not think properly... by jumping the steps, you are forfeiting the steps that allows everyone to forgive everyone, and in the end, everyone will be pissed, and guess wad? its all because you jumped to conclusions... well done...
or i will be
This week, has been rather difficult, and i forsee an even more difficult week this week... 3 projects to complete, 1 presentation, and 1 test to study for. once again, i think i will not blog this week.
wait a while
Morgan and Angela's wedding on saturday was good... very touching... they have been together for about 9 years i think? i lost count... haha! and who says the first love will definately not work out... Morgangela, what they call themselves... haha... their names combined... cool...
and you will see
I like Eunice and Alvin's brownies... hmm... Alvinice? wait a minute, if alvin is my mentor, and i his mentee, wouldnt tt make eunice my, mentist?
understand
ahh...i cannot forget how nice my friends are... my servecam mates, and esp p council, for suprising me, with a cake and a gift, in canteen 1... haha, i was indeed shocked! but i was happy... i cannot forget also my ex-classmates, soolan and gang, that they tried to suprise me, but i ended up suprising them instead, they bought me a cake! so nice... i cant forget the time where my classmates came into my home to trick me in my own home, into celebrating my birthday for me, they are so nice... and i was shocked also... i guess my age is catching up on me, getting shocked too easily nowadays... i am touched by what my dg mates have done for me, both my year 2 and year 3 dg mates, my year 2 buying a whole cake for me, and a bear as a present, and my year 3, for the cakes... i also cannot forget the time where you tried to suprise me, but failed to, but i liked ur reaction... dun worry, failure is the mother to success...i was touched by your persistence, and this i wont forget... haha! i am not boasting here, but just acknowledging what my beautiful friends have done for me...especially you... alright...back to school tmr... so now... sleep time...
so it shall be...

2006-12-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

2006-11-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

Had a great week!
esp with you...
Wednesday: Had my parents wedding anniversary at Club Chinois, their Silver 25th year, they invited alot of friends... i wore a blazer...cool... dinner was good, a fusion of chinese and western style food...everything turned out alright though many things were done last minute...
you give me comfort and warmth
Thursday: Finally had the chance to go to somewhere i wont have expected to go until a long long time more... MOS! Joel invited me to go with him and his friends... a little exposure would be good, but dun overdo it, limits should be set... (that was what i told myself many times), it was cool, fun... but i dont think i will go so often...expensive... ar... haha...
i love my time with you...
Friday: Nothing much happened here, only that went out to URA for some talk for LAM module... den went to shangri-la with groupmates to do some observation...Then had dinner with my family at this Brazilian Restaurant at Bukit Timah, not our first time there... haha.. Food was good!
time well spent, money well spent, emotions well spent...
Saturday: My actual birthday... Went out with someone special... had a movie, watched "step up" cool... i wanna learn how to dance... went to cut hair also, at least the style was better...cut at far east - Kleancut... Walked around at nite, saw alot of stars, sat out next to the singapore river, next to the merlion, just talking, thinking... i was very quiet...i know...i enjoyed my day with you... i love your present! and your suprise! haha... no need to feel bad that your suprise did not work... what matters is your heart... i feel appreciated... something i have not felt in a long time... something that is from the bottom of someone's heart, something sincere... and right now as i am writing this, i feel a sense of comfort, and i dunno, i just feel like crying, cause of the comfort...dun think i'm mad yea... haha... I'm touched... for all you've done...
give me some time...
This week, another week thats gonna be busy... i needa do some work now, so i'll not continue with my writing, but just wanna comment on Eunice and Alvin's Brownies... something they and a few others baked to sell to raise funds for their mission trip...nice! They are doing it right man... instead of just purely asking for donations, they are at least putting in effort to raise funds by selling something... something i have learnt about attitude toward serving God...
i promise...soon...
Ciaoz...

2006-11-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

2006-11-20T13:52:00.000+08:00

I am currently in my last week of being a teenager... thereafter, i will move on to the transition of 1 year, being neither a teen, nor an adult... haha...

last saturday was cool... in the morning, supposed to have classmates over at my place to do project for the roadshow.. but instead of doing project, they suprised me with an early birthday celebration! so cool... haha, they even bought be a cake... Thanks guys! and also thanks for the gift!

thereafter went for Sat BS for bible study, well, normal... nothing much, nowadays getting lesser and lesser ppl... avg rate of ppl coming for BS per week is now 12/week... last year, it used to be 20/week... well, as some might say... got good got bad...

after BS went out with some peeps from the P council! haha... went to vivo city for dinner at swensons... it was crowded... joy and her bf, siwei and mabia, and ginni and myself... 6 of us... the rest of p council couldnt make it... walked around after tt, ginni and i went to see the bookstore on doulos! it was nice...

Thanks Joy for the wonderful present!

after tt, the rest "needed" to go off... because "something" popped up... and they "needed" to leave... haha.. so ginni and i continued walking around...den we were eventually tired of walking so we sat down somewhere and took photos, cause was trying out some functions of her camera... cool...

anywayz, thats about it for that saturday...

now i am trying to rush a report which is due on thursday, and am rushing it cause the next few days are gonna be busy for me...

yup, tts about it... oh, and i think i will be celebrating my borthday with my family this friday instead of saturday... so if any of u guys wanna date me on sat, haha... i am free! hahaha... *thick skin*

i like your company...

2006-11-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

Haha... nice blogskin aint it? All thanks to MY pot of honey! Thanks! Calvin and Hobbes... cute...

School is gonna be long tomorrow... haha... better sleep now...

2006-11-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

I know i'm doing "The Phantom of the Opera" a great injustice by relating this song to the video, but i just wanted to find this song on mtv in youtube, but this is the bes i could find...oh, and i removed the background music to my blog so that everyone can listen to the music videos i put up better... needa change my blogskin soon...

its for u...

Boom Boom Boom
Rare Blend
(Coyote Ugly)

Ooh
Oh yeah
Every time we touch
I can't get enough
A feeling strong
All in you
I want you so much
Baby, I confess
I'm a total mess
When you're around
The only sound I hear
Is my heart going

Boom, boom, boom,
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Everybody in love knows
The way you make my heart go
Boom, boom, boom,
Boom, boom, boom, boom
It only beats this way for you

Yeah yeah

Something in your eyes
Tells me that you're mine
Can't you see
That you and me
Get better all the time

Girl, with very kiss
(With very kiss)
I can promise this (ooh ooh)
You'll always be
The one I need
Always make my heart go

What you do
Make me crazy
Crazy for you
Boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom
(Everybody in love knows)
Boom, boom, boom
(Girl you make my heart go)
Boom, boom, boom
(Everybody in love knows)
Boom, boom, boom
(Girl you make my heart go)

Boom, boom, boom
(That's the way
That my heart goes)
Everybody in love knows
The way you make my heart go
Boom, boom, boom
(I'm in love and it shows)
It only beats this way for you
Boom, boom, boom,
(That's the way
That my heart goes)
Everybody in love knows
The way you make my heart go
Boom, boom

2006-11-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

This week has been fast, real fast... probably cause of the WISP project presentation... at first, i would have thought that we were going to do quite badly, den on the day itself, it came to be a suprise, a suprise such that it seemed our group's presentation was one of the best... thanks for the encouragement...

Anyway, gonna go for SAT BS soon... just completed doing my BS materials... Today's one quite ok, compared to last week's topic... haha...

Oh, and i completed the novel on the "Stay Alive, My Son", the book i bought from Cambodia talking about a guy's account on his experience on the Dark Khmer rouge days... It was so sad... losing his whole entire family... dark days those were...

Yup, thats it for this post...

I hope u like the gift... I enjoyed myself last night too...thanks...

2006-11-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

Finally had the chance to drive to school... haha, it was fun, driving to school, first time actually driving by myself... hope can drive tmr too... haha...

Presentation tmr, scary siaa... cause not really prepared... haha, its for my IS, WISP...

anyway, back to work... and a song for you...

Oceans apart day after day and I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line but it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never how can we say forever

Wherever you go whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times that I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears but I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby you've got me goin' crazy

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby you've got me goin' crazy

2006-11-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

School has been rather slack so far, had a nice week last week, especially the end of the week... it was, so, ahhh....relaxing...i had fun on friday evening! haha... wont go into details, its a secret! haha...

This week i probably gonna be the start of the stress and pressure cause all the projects and assignments are starting to come in... Luckily Mrs Koh cheng mun agreed that i did not need to plan a social event for marketing students as yet... but she advised me to use that money for something else at the end of the semester... whew... lucky... else have more stress... cause this sem only me left as social rep...

I hope this friday would be fun again... looking forward to it...

2006-10-29T00:42:00.000+08:00

Today was a tiring day... Camp was ok, worship practise was ok, p council gathering was good...

But i have something to say...

The rate of my indecisiveness greatly concerns me...

2006-10-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

The haze has finally died down, air quality is more acceptable...

School has been quite good so far, projects not yet flowing in. And i dun think i wanna go for the hong kong trip after all, wah lao, so expensive la, 4 days 3 nights, full price is $840, and still need to do project... i dun think i will be able to get a subsidy... probably go with friends during holidays... haha...

What do ya know... i somehow got myself into another "trap"! haha... i was like, well done alex... somehow i am now in charge of open house serve cambodia booth! haha, marcus la... he shoot me siaa... nvm, i can do it!

Went running with philip this morning in school b4 IS started, man, i think i better start running weekly...but overall, it was satisfying that i ran, even though my time need to be halved to pass... haha

oh well!

tomorrow will be having school, have to be there early in the morning 8am for something... haiz... haha! den at evening have camp till sat afternoon, den sat afternoon have worship practise, and evening got BBQ, yay! haha, cant wait for this...

all in all... i hope i have a fun time! haha... tts all...

I'm confused... should i? or should i not? i wish i knew...

2006-10-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

the new semester is about to start... this is gonna be my last sem in ngee ann poly... fast, aint it? den soonafter, it'll be army for me...

seriously, my poly life passed me by, just like a blink of an eye... perhaps i was too involved in things, such that i found time moving too fast... oh well...

this is a sem which probably has the most public holidays... i think... i hope and pray that my gpa will be damn friggin good this sem...

tmr school at 11am, its a lecture...oh well... ta ta...

2006-10-11T10:41:00.000+08:00

Alrighties, I'm finally back from a 15-day community service learning trip to Cambodia, i had a great time there, but of course there were some "not so great" times, i'll elaborate...

Day 1
This was the day we left for cambodia. i woke up real early, at like 3am and headed of to Changi Airport. Flight was at 7am. Duration - 1h30mins. Flew on JetStar Asia. Mr Sonny, director of the first child care centre we were heading to, Full Gospel Assembly Centre (FGAC), met us at the airport, nice guy... Children at FGAC are quite nice, and warm... thank God, they speak english.. they greeted us with "Brother/Sister"... They are very appreciative for anything, anybody do for them...

Our mission here was to rebuild a footpath, and to paint a wall, i built the footpath... it was fun but tiring... and tough... its not easy to level the slabs of concrete... on another note, we had toget used to their timings, such as meal times, breakfast at 6am, lunch at 12, dinner at 6pm... 1 dish meals, always have rice... Electricity was also scheduled... we only got electricity at certain times of the day... and there were more than sufficient mosquitoes to share around, some of us were too greedy that we took more than our share of mosquitoes...

some of the roads there were in very bad condition, very rocky and bumpy... and i rarely see traffic lights...

Day 2
Got to know some of the kids there, the kids there ranged from 3 to 18 y/o... got to know Roth Chearn, Wuthy, John Smith, Chone Von...

Joined in their prayer service, which was before dinner(it was a christian centre), and i realised that they were so passionate and lively in worshipping God, something which i dun see as often in Singapore...

Our lecturer in charged asked us this question - Is it us who bring joy to the cambodian kids? or is it them who bring joy to us?

Day 3
We all went to Sunshine home, a place which houses orphans, and some has HIV and AIDs cause of their parents... After that went to see some war memorial, has to do with the Khmer Rouge killings... they kept the skulls and bones in a glass structure as memories...

i went to the market today, and ate some duck egg, it was actually a half grown duckling in the egg, and they cooked it... it had already grown feathers and small bones... It was quite gross at first... but i eventually ate it, and it was suprisingly quite nice... tasted like crab eggs... drank their "poot poot" shake... haha, thats our code for fruit shake... they mixed lots of fruits in it and made it into a shake... why poot poot? cause some of us were not able to "shit" those few days there, so we tried taking more fruits to help us...

Day 4
Nothing much interesting, just continued building the footpath, just like every other day...

Day 5
Got the chance to follow some of the kids to school... Sark, phiekadai, and paula held my hands tight, grabed my hands all the way to the school... they are so cute... they brought me to the playground... haha...i wont elaborate....

Day 6
It was the day we gave them a mini fun fair of games... they seemed very happy and contented...

This was also our last day in FGAC, we had our perfirmances at night, and after that, some of us cried, cause we were so sad we were leaving... i did not cry, i told myself not to... it was not good for guys to cry... haha... i almost did though... we gave our hugs at the end... it was... warm...

Day 7
Left FGAC... headed to phnom phen to do some sightseeing, with mr sonny as our tour guide... went to the russian market for some shopping, and after tt, lunch at a small shop... we had a dessert, coconut with 3 scoops of icecream inside, with sago and atapchi and raisins...went to see one of the "pol pot regime's" killing centres... freaky... it was an old school they used to kill and torture their own people... After that went for shopping at a shopping centre... it was said to be the largest in the whole Cambodia... comparable to Singapore's Tampines Mall, maybe a little smaller i think...

Soon after, had a 2h30mins ride to Kumpung Thom for our next community service place... Bright Arrows Child Care Centre (BAC)... at Tros villages... Barai District... We were supposed to build a basket ball court here... and paint a mural... The director was Dr Castro, a filipino doctor... The kids here could not speak english... haha... they were younger, probably around 2 to 16 years old... we had more mosquitoes here... haha...

Day 8 - 9
Read the book Ms Chew bought... about the pol pot regime, the survivor's stories... it was a dark time... people killed people of their own(thats kinda the worst thing)... children were brainwashed into killing their own parents, "Family" had a new definition... Families separated... Adults treated like children, children treated like adults... I thought to myself, wad was all my mosquito bites? wads all the politics going on in my team? wads all the blaming and problems going on in my team? wads all the splitting up in my team? wads all that compared to the regime? It reminded me of God's Love...and promise...

Indeed, there was problems in my team... which team wont have problems? Forgive, although u cant forget...The most important thing is that you learn... therefore, its better that you dont forget... so you can learn from it, and let the lesson stick with you...Blaming each other is just a process... it doesnt matter much... wad matters most is you learn from it... These were some of my thoughts during those few days...

I learnt that someone wasnt too happy with me, even till now, as i am blogging, i can say she still isnt too happy with me... i was said to be insensitive toward her with my words... My friend who told me this told me that i should go apologise and talk it out with her... I said that indeed, i will and i should go talk it out with her...else things will get worse... so i decided to talk to her the next day, cause it was already late at night...

Day 10 - 11
While washing the laundry, and i went to her and asked her for a brush for the clothing, she simply just threw it on the floor, with a black face, not saying anything, as if i owed her something...Of course, that act made me pissed... so i decided, that was not the right time to talk to her... else things might get worse... i was thinking, "things could have almost been solved, but tt happened...", Pride took over me, pride took over her... I wanted to take the initiative... i guess its not the right time...

Although there are many thoughts going on in my mind right now, i guess i wont say it... not here... my thoughts would only be meant for "special" people...

Things happen...and i am absolutely disappointed...

Days 12
Had our celebration for the kids on this day, and also our performances... it was almost the same as the first place... no crying at this place... haha...

Day 13 - Day 14
We left for Siem Reap... and stayed at Angkor lion hotel... nice hotel, i think about 3 stars... at siem reap, went to visit angkor wat and angkor thom, and had more shopping, had a small outreach here too... it was a fun time here at siem reap, more relaxed...

at night on day 14, i followed P Council to do massage... haha... my first time... but it was not that shiok... the massage place was just opposite the hotel... i felt molested la... haha!

Day 15
Woke up real early again, 3am, to leave for airport... home sweet home...

Through this trip, i made many friends... i love my P Council... i hope and pray, we will not split...

2006-09-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

My Pre-Trip Reflections, also posted in my Serve Cambodia Group Blog, http://servecam06.blogspot.com/

Sometimes I think to myself, am I doing enough for the community? Recently, I was pondering upon this question, and the answer is clearly a “NO”. What does it mean to “do community service”? What does it mean to “give back to the community”? Many people have different viewpoints on this. There is no definite answer, but to me, what matters most is the intention behind doing “community service”, in other words, are we doing community service for the right reason? I feel that learning only comes after this stage.

Living in Singapore, I would say most of us are more fortunate (economically) as compared to the population in Cambodia, where we are heading to. Because of this, some of us (eg. me), are more pampered and spoilt (not that being in a more fortunate country is bad). In short, we take things for granted.

As I was packing my bag for the trip, I realized I was taking very long, in fact, it was longer than usual. I had so many things to pack, so many things to choose to bring. I was thinking whether I should bring a backpack or a luggage. What I am saying is, I was “spoilt for CHOICE”. Thinking about the Cambodian kids, do they generally have this service/privilege called “CHOICE”?

Ever since I came into the polytechnic, I told myself that I would try my best not to be such an introvert, and just be “active”, and participate in whatever activities I can participate in. Ever since, I have joined many things, ranging from teambuilding camps, to leadership roles in the school’s orientation programme for freshmen, roles in my cca, even roles outside school. What have I learnt from these? I have learnt more about Leadership. Is Leadership important? Yes, leadership IS important. However, what good is leadership if you can’t even CARE for people? What good is leadership if you only think about yourself?

On another note, by working as a team, there is bound to be arguments, conflicts, silent wars, negative remarks about/to each other. I guess having these “vitamins” makes the team “healthier”, in the sense that we will be able to learn from each other’s mistakes, and then grow as a leader/follower from there. However, having an over dosage of these “vitamins” will not be too good for us. I guess we should learn to accept each other and forgive all past grievances. By forgiving, I do not mean forgetting, as you might have heard from some people saying “forgive and forget”. How can one forget, unless he is brainwashed? However, by forgiving, I mean to put away all anger, malice, slander, hate, and not bring it up again such that it may cause more hurt. Which is easier? To continue hating, leading to gossips, leading to more division among the group, or just simply forgiving? On the other hand, does asking for forgiveness mean you “lose face”? I do not think so. We should also understand that as humans, we are all different; we have different styles of working, different personalities, etc…

I believe that we are still learning, at least, I am still learning, because I still have a lot to learn, whether it is about leadership, or about caring, or about forgiving, being more understanding, or about Cambodian kids, their culture, their lifestyle.

For this trip, let’s all have fun together while learning; let’s exchange our laughter with them. I believe that this trip will change my view on many things by the time I reach back home. I am glad that I have the chance to go for this service learning trip to Cambodia.

2006-09-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

i simply love my xiao mei mei... haha... its been a long time since someone has comforted me like tt...finally have a listening ear... other den sir alvin...

thanks xiao mei mei...

2006-09-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

pressured by imf people
pressured by serve cambodia things
pressured by friends
pressured by church
pressured by campus crusade

what the freaking heck... i hate it...why cant people be more understanding? why cant they look 2 sides to a situation?

pressured...

2006-09-18T15:23:00.000+08:00

pissed off... and i dun wanna talk so much about it now...i just hate it when people are against me or something, or show that their biased against me... the words u said just spoiled my whole day... fullstop...

2006-09-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

2006-09-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

ok, bonding camp ended today... i must say, i did not have much fun at bonding camp, probably cause i was worrying with my results throughout the whole camp... i was damn scared i failed a module... Results turned out ok i guess... did not fail any, thank God!!!

knew the serve cambodia team better, know more of their names, though theres still about 2 or 3 i have not got used to yet... programmes were good, interesting... some cliques were broken, well, at least for me i guess... got to know this "xiao mei mei" more... really like a primary school girl... wah lao, violent siaa... haha... she even made me bang my head against the wall...

was tired during the second day cause did not have much sleep... and for those who know me well knows that i cannot dun sleep one... haha.. else i will be a walking zombie, which will in turn, start talking rubbish...

got to know each of the members' better as we each shared our life journey, i think its a very good exercise... i guess that also made some people understand y others do things the way they did...at least thats wad i felt... hopefully that solved some conflicts...

well, i have nothing really much to talk about... cambodia community service is in slightly more than 1 weeks time... a little excited... nevertheless, there will be some fears...

oh well...

2006-09-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

Met Alvin for breakfast today at KAP... talked about certain things, our lives, wads been troubling us... it was a good and fruitful time i must say... always look forward to talk to him about wads been happening, and hear from him...

went to school for the practise of the dance steps for serve cambodia... Ifah was in charge... she's done a GREAT job so far! but shes kinda stressed out with certain things... well, i will just give my support to her so she wont give up! Ifah: You've done well! dont give up!

I really really really hope and pray i will be able to get along with everyone, i really dun want to find myself in another mess with other people... Serve Cambodia team: we need to work harder with being closer together, we need to put away our grudges, forgive... i know its easy to say, and tough to do, but if we all try, i believe it can be done... i myself will try too! it wont hurt...

told my serve cambodia lecturer in charge that i couldnt go for one of the briefings next week cause i was involved with the IMF... when she did not reply, i started to worry and thought: "was she angry?"... so i sent her the same message again... but still did not reply until about an hour later... haha... guess she was busy with stuff... she replied me with something which made me worry even more... this was my train of thoughts immediately: "oh man, thats it, i'm blacklisted! she hates me!!!", "is she just being sarcastic?", "is she pissed cause i did not commit my full time to serve cambodia?". Then i decided to take it positively, and not think too much... and so replied her with a message with humility... haha, not sure if tts the right word to use...Well, i must say, even when i look at that message now, it still sends shivers down my spine... all i can tell myself is: "tts not wad she meant, tts not wad she meant..."

i think too much...

is that good? is that bad?

somehow i still think that is good... but of course i must be extra careful, because thinking too much adds extra risk of misunderstanding... and sensitivity is something which i cannot get rid off too easily u know...

like i told Alvin this morning, i guess God puts these obstacles in my life to build me up... i just have to be thankful, as alvin told me, that God did not put all of them into my life, all at once... which might kill me...

oh well...persistance...

enough about tt... went to watch a movie with esther, leon and yuetwei at cineleisure, The Host... it was a so-so show...maybe not my kinda show...

its back to school tomorrow for dance practise again... haha!

2006-09-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

went to church early today for youth cell, starting on a new book... hmm... hope i can be regular...(hope is... comforting...)

service was interesting, i find Rev Sng's messages quite interesting actually... after church service, went for lunch with Alvin, cause he asked me to sit in for the conference
sunday thingy, where leaders get appointed or reappointed, by nomination (kena sabo-ed)... kinda like a formal annual business meeting, except conducted by the pastors and the district superintendent (i think)...supposed to be quite long, cause many people usually raise up things, which will be quite debate-able... but today, it was short, as told by Alvin...

walked around in chinatown, china square after that, casue just felt like walking... (again, walking is a way for me to think, relieve my thoughts...)... walked for about 1 and half hours... den started to drizzle, so went home...

oh wellz... camp this week... hope it'll be fun!

Alexander

2006-09-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

Went to school yesterday for cambodia meeting, den went out with esther and mildred for lunch and jalan jalan... i found out that mildred is more act cute than yuet wei...

It has been a tiring day today, though it seemed quite short actually...

Today something "shocking" happened at home... i was alone at home in the afternoon, and was in my room using the computer, sending out emails, with my doors and windows closed, where at that point of time i felt hot, so i decided to open the windows, den i smelt something burning...i followedthe smell to downstairs, where i got a shock of my life to see my house at ground floor was smokey, it was like someone threw a smoke bomb there... i even thought that "aiyah nvm, i think its the "mosquito people" spraying the gas" den i looked at the doors, they were all closed, and the smell really smelled worse... so i went to the kitchen and i saw a pot with fumes coming out of it, the wall was stained with carbon, and the whole kitchen was absolutely not fit for any human being to breathe normally in... really like a fog in my kitchen... my mother forgot to tell me she was cooking something... until now i can still smell the burnt smell in my kitchen, i think it will take another day to get rid of the smell... scary, yet hilarious...

finally deleted mails from my mailbox... for those of you who have seen my mailbox b4 will know that i am quite lazy to delete mails, such that i accumulated mails of 1000+ in my inbox...

Went out to IMM to celebrate Leon's birthday. had dinner with them (marcus, leon, esther, siaoying, yuetwei) at this japanese steamboat restaurant... its lousy.... costed each of us like $17+ and so few choices of food... seoul garden better la... though i always get stomach ache after eating there...

tomorrow have to be in school at like 8am for the imf training, a long day for me...

Serve Cambodia Bonding camp is next week... den i am off to Cambodia in 3 weeks time...Wheee...

oh ya, and i'd like to say something before i end off... Getting information from someone about me does not equate to what i really am like, if you wanna know what i am like, then you should both work and play with me for a reasonable amount of time... if you do not want to know me, or you have not worked or played with me for a reasonable amount of time, or only got your info about me from someone else, then you should not judge me, because clearly, you do not know me, and by doing the things which i just said, it might almost go to show that you only see things from the surface, and you do not look deeper...

Thats all i got to say...

Believe it or not, i leave it in your hands to decide...

2006-09-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

haha, saw this on mr brown's website, hilarious...

HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF

1. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.

2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors."

3. Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO."

4. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.

5. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.

6. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."

7. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think."

8. Practice making fax and modem noises.

9. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to your boss.

10. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.

11. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophesy."

12. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and
grimacing.

13. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.

14. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.

15. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."

16. Staple pages in the middle of the page.

17. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.

18. Honk and wave to strangers.

19. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints
at the cash register.

20. TYPE IN UPPERCASE.

21. type only in lowercase.

22. dont use any punctuation either

23. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.

24. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times.
"DO YOU HEAR THAT?"
"What?"
"Never mind, it's gone now."

25. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.

26. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin.

27. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.

28. Ask people what gender they are.

29. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.

30. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.

31. Sing along at the opera.

32. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.

33. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."

2006-08-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

2006-08-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

Went to watch "My Super ex girlfriend" with leon, yuetwei and esther yesterday, fun, but the movie so so la... hhaha... i need more outings... haha!

went to school today again to discuss about the marketing stuff to implement... tmr need to go again... today after discussing, went to leon's house, together with esther and yuet wei to watch movie... haha... the movie also so so la... maybe i am more toward the action packed-fantasy kinda movies...

will be having a one night chalet tmr... hope it'll be fun...

2006-08-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

Ahh... class chalet was NICE... quite fun, stayed throughout the 3 days... it was at downtown east, and not the whole class came...

went rollerbladding (which i am a beginner at), played arcade, pool, played cards, siaoying brought mahjong but i did not play...

got to know more about some people, but its a secret which i cannot let out... haha, we played the "Honest Game", which i was quite uncomfortable with, probably cause i'm not the type who likes to tell people so much about myself... so siaoying was like, so pissed with me... haha...paiseh...but hey, the fact that i said some things was good already...

BBQ was good, we tried not to cater too much, but nevertheless, it seems that theres this certain magic force that, no matter how little or much is ordered, there will inevitably be leftovers...

went to macdonalds at like 12.30am today to have supper(how ironic)... den we were playing stupid games such as "black magic", "what time is it?", the typical ngee ann poly business school games, but some dunno... marcus had alot of games... some i dunno... den after that we were playing the time game, he was like looking so hard at the box of milk! trying to see wad the time was... he looked damn funny when he is confused... went back to chalet after tt, and was playing cards with marcus, leon and yuetwei... played till like 5.30am... den decided to sleep... supposed to wake up at 7 to go to church... but was so tired that decided not too(orh hor, bad boy!), else i would end up sleeping during sermon... which was bad as well...

Heard that theres supposed to be like 2 moons in the sky tonight... not really 2 moons, but 1 moon and 1 planet... oh, and talking about planets, theres no more pluto... haha, how awkward... they will need to change all the primary science textbooks...no more pluto but theres a few new planets... thats wad i heard... haha...

i'm slow...

2006-08-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

alrite, exams are FINALLY over! its a good feeling to be relaxed... this morning was feeling so ill before i took the paper...man... and the paper was tough... oh well... its over, pray i dun fail...

anyway, tmr will be the class chalet till sunday, hope it will be fun...

anyway, today just wanna update about somethings that have been on my mind... some things which are beginning to concern me, and if i dont take action, it will end up BAD... but somethings, i know i should wait instead...

right now i feel that some people are just too inconsiderate, think only in a one-sided view, too inflexible, and think that people owe them their lives... ok, maybe i am exaggerating on the last statement, but it is still to a certain extent... oh man, right now, i think i will just choose not to comment on what THAT person is trying to do... correct, asking for forgiveness is better than asking for permission, and that is exactly what i have done... but i am sad to say, i think i have given THAT person a wrong perspective, now THAT person thinks that i was really i who was in the wrong... oh man... haha... ok, i give up... u can have all my apologies for all i care... but what ends up is whether the problem is appeased... i have done my part... have you?

oh well...

2006-08-19T02:15:00.000+08:00

2006-08-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

My Rubbish

I must say... Singapore Idol is getting more and more boring, and disappointing...oh well... anyway... the best singers are always at the bottom few, last week, rahimah got out, this week, matilda is out... i really question singaporean's criteria of voting...do they vote for cuteness? good looks? or really the voice? Rahimah and Matilda does not deserve to go... though i support paul twohill the most, i admit, he does not have as good a voice as matilda and rahimah... Jonathan is good too...

Although i do not support hadi and jasmine, i feel that now they are getting very good, and can become top 5...

oh well, back to studying...

2006-08-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

Have been studying these 3 days, but rather slowly... very slow... i dunno whether i will have enough time to finish all... my momentum is accelerating at a decelerating speed...and that is bad... my exams are next week... have 3 papers... hmm...

went to extend my passport today, for the cambodia trip... cause miss nelly chew was asking for it... e;se cannot book air tickets i think... i dunno also... but yea...

gonna continue studying soon, and tomorrow also... was very lazy today... started studying at like 3, study on my bed, den before finish reading the first page of my notes, i fell asleep... haha... terrible... thats the lazy me! but well, thats means i will stay up longer tonite to study... started on marketing communications today... i aim to finish 5 chapters today, and so far, i am done with 2 only... hmm... interesting...

i'm slow...

2006-08-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm getting real heaty... lips are cracking, gums are hurting... painful...

BS yesterday was good, met alvin earlier at bishan to go to eunice's house... then he and morgan was kunning there... while i prepared for BS... haha... shh... Interesting session today i must say, many new insights, and more to come i guess, looking forward for the rest of this series of Philippians...

Church service today was kinda boring i must say, no matter how much the speaker showed his enthusiasm, i just couldnt absorb in information... haha... maybe i was thinking more about "Alvin's theories"... the more i listen to him, the more complicated things get, haha... we debate, but he always ends up winning, y? uses english to kill me rite... haha... hey alvin, dun become dan brown ar... haha! Somehow today i won him in a conversation, i think he was probably quite tired, else he would have won me again...Alvin's mad, the more he sleeps, the more tired he is... haha...

Went Ikea with sis in the evening to look around, man, darn crowded... haha... its sunday! i bought a table lamp... but i wanted to get other stuff, but cannot find...

This week, my study week, i'm gonna try my best to spend this time wisely...

Time to sleep...

Alexander Tang

2006-08-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

it has been a rather long day today...

It was the Integrated presentation(IP) today, it went alright i must say, neither too disappointed or too happy... just average... and as usual, marcus's group was kinda like the most outstanding..

Had a class outing to swensons at plaza sing for dinner... it was fun, took photos, and celebrated marcus's, joan's and mildred's birthday... cool... it was ice cream cake.... haha, havent had one in a long time... it was nice... i love ice cream...

after that some of us wanted to see fireworks, but after that decided not too cause like, we might not reach the place in time... siaoying they all went shopping...

so esther, yuetwei, leon and myself went to marina square to walk walk...wah lao... there was heavy traffic... from PS to marina square, it was like a 20 mins bus ride... haha... so long...

We had ice cream again... from this jap stall i think... den walked around, and took more photos... its as if exams are over... haha... guess we just needed the relaxation from the whole IP saga... haha...

legs are aching, shoulders are hurting... i'm weak... oh well...

2006-08-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

Time passes very fast... indeed, it does...

just a blink of an eye, i am in year 3 of my poly... just a blink of an eye, i am entering the 2nd decade of my boring life, which needs some spicing up... It seems like just last year which i participated in the national day, but 6 years has passed, ever since i did the mass dance in year 2000, which was a very memoriable time... the feel of excitement, accomplishment, and words which i cannot really describe... If any of you ever have the chance, dun lose it!

Life has seemed to be less meaningful these few months, and i would say that partly it is wad i have been doing, wad i have been involved with...

I think i need more... excitement...

I know that i am the kinda person who is quite emotional, who does not show it so clearly, and i am sensitive, these i admit... sometimes i choose to voice it out, and thats when u are lucky... and sometimes i choose to keep mum about it...

oh well, having said out my weaknesses, i am trying to change...

(now concentrate and ponder on my next question...)

are u? have u? or are you just concentrating on pointing out others mistakes?

Please do not mistake me for directing this question at a specific someone, because i am not, and i have no reason to... The reason why i am saying all these is that i realise that we as humans can sometimes be so fake, and hypocritical on some things... even i myself, sometimes fall into that trap, and i call it a trap cause we might not even realise it ourselves...

Also dun mistake me for saying that it is wrong for pointing out someone's mistakes, in fact, it is good to point out someone's mistakes, but dont just stop there... tell the person how to change, and how to do better... This is something i must improve too... cause if you really care about the person, you want him to change, if you dont care, y tell him in the first place? I need to start caring...

ponder ponder...

2006-08-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

Its National Day!

Happy 41st Birthday to Singapore!

How am i spending this precious public holiday? Well, i will be having a BIG project presentation this coming friday, which integrates 3 modules together, and the people from SingPost are gonna come over to see the presentation... So i have been completing some of the stuffs which i am supposed to do, and am now resting... I really hope the presentation will go well man, 3 module's grades will be affected...

After this friday's presentation, i will probably be more relaxed, well, for like, a day... cause exams are coming up in 2 weeks time... i wont say i'm stressed... but i am starting to feel the pressure...

So yea... thats about it...

2006-08-05T01:12:00.000+08:00

2006-08-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

ok, so i was rite... jay's out... hopefully next one out is jasmine... haha! i feel so saddistic...

This year's national day song not tt nice, hmm... I CANT SEE FIREWORKS FROM MY NEW HOUSE! hahhaa...cool... not a clear view though...

BS starts tmr again... will be going to school in the morning first though...

Alexander

2006-08-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

Ever experienced how irritating it can be when someone just tries to make things difficult for you? where every small action you do, he/she has to make comments which will just piss you off? or even just give the "kiam pah" look on the face?

It really just pisses and turns me off!

Well, i realised its no use arguing over it, so i'll just try return a smile if i still could, if not, i'll just keep my mouth shut, in order to avoid any problems, which are already sufficient in my life...

Each of us, as humans, think differently, i cant expect everyone else to think the same as me, this may inevitably cause conflict, but u can tell others what you think, but u cant ultimately force them to follow your beliefs... yes, its what i realised quite late, and yes, i learnt it the hard way... i mean, u cant control me and my life...Whatever decisions i make, sure i have reasons... and i dont think i owe you any explanations...

2006-07-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

The pace of the integrated project is now building up fast, and it is darn tough to do...this integrated project consists of combining 3 of my modules into 1 BIG project, and eventually, presentation infront of all the lecturers, and even the people from the company, SingPost... i really hope the CEO wont be there... haha... cause it would be really scary...

Finally got the chance to have dinner with Mentor... had pizza, and talked alot, shared alot about many things... usually when we meet, we chat alot about how we feel about certain things... and we encourage each other, well, its most of the time him encouraging me through his words of wisdom...2 phrases i brought back home to think, which i found really interesting, and true...

Aptitude is not a Substitute for Attitude...

What you tear down, you MUST build back up...

Well, i really agree with the tearing down and building up theory, cause this has happened many times to me these few months... whether people tearing me down, or i tearing down other people... the context we were speaking of was actually the topic on scolding/punishment/rebuking... We all know that when someone scolds us or punish us, its because they care, because if they dont, they just wont do anything... but if you just end at the scolding part, i guess what you are only doing is tearing down the person... in order to really help the person, you must build back up the person... i dun think i need to say further how...

We all remember how God punishes those in the bible He really loves... Then i told Alvin, "If you dont get punished, you should get scared"... interesting...

I guess i still have alot to learn from him...

Finished watching 2nd season of "The OC"... very nice show...

And i just watched "Black Hawk Down" well, i dont really like war shows for their gruesome parts, but what i kinda like, and attracted too, is their brotherhood... and i admire that...

Tomorrow's church again, hope i can wake up on time... and will be coming home after that to do work... better start preparing for my IBS solution selling call tomorrow...

Alexander

2006-07-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

okok Mentor! heres the post... haha...Was quite busy as usual again these weeks, thus the rare update... still am busy, but i guess i wanted this time to reflect.

My life has been like some people might put it, a "roller coaster ride of emotions", but just a mild one... have been doing some hard thinking about certain things, so if some of u may realise me keeping real quiet, now u know the reason... sometimes we know that things cannot go our way, yet we just want it to... cause of our selfish nature, much as we can be forgiven, i still commit this non-selfless love, something i am struggling with ALL the time...

Another thing i am facing is still the problem on sensitivity... i understand that it is good to be a little sensitive, but not too much, well, i must say i am improving... and tts good...

And the last thing i want someone to tell me is "Glad u found out this about yourself finally", because this is definately not gonna help in anyway whatsoever...(somepeople did say this to me before, thats y i am pointing it out), but rather, u can say, if u wish to "In which areas can i help u?" or something like that...

Anyways, finally could spend some time with my DG for a Dinner... we had dinner on Friday at Bukit timah plaza, some restaurant at the basement 2...forgot the name... "Wishbone" i think...It was a good time... we chatted, talked about things such as charismatics to prayer... it was an interesting time...

On saturday, i made myself useful by going for a newspaper collection thingy, conducted by BA CARES, some community service...it was fun... have to apologise to peiwen and esther and mildred, that i kinda pangsei-ed them in the end, cause i joined another group... but at that time, it was like, i felt torn...haha... i really dunno which one to join... both sides have my friends...
so to peiwen and esther: that act of me going to the other group, dont take it too seriously, it did not mean much...

As usual, went to church today, but wad was unusual was that i went for yourh cell... haha! i have kinda been skipping it these few weeks... a reason was cause i am lazy to wake up... but there are other reasons too... one is cause i feel that i should not be taking on too many bible studies... right now i have 2 at crusade(year 2 and year 3), and 1 for saturday BS... total = 3, excluding sunday BS... another reason is that i feel that i am not really getting much outta this sunday BS... Well, i must say, what lawrence say i rite, we should not always come to take and take, we should also come to give... and that if we say we are not ready to give, den when are we really ready? But somehow i still think there is a chance of me ending up not committing to this sunday BS... enough said...

Qingwen is leaving ngee ann crusade and moving on to singapore poly crusade... shocking news for me... oh well... God has a plan... Year 3 DG outing this wed!

have been watching my sister's DVDs "The OC" and i love it... haha... watching it really make me envious of their lifestyle...on to the second season already... hoping for the 3rd season DVDs to come out soon...

Catched a little singapore idol sometimes... who are my favourates, and who i hope will get to the Top 5? hmm... i would say Paul Twohill, Rahimah Rahim, Jonathan Leong, Matilda D'Silva, Hady... haha... the first 2 are kinda my favorites... i like their personality --> Mysterious... i love it... of course their voice too... well, i did write these in order of whom i liked the most to the least... so go figure... i know that what i am gonna say now is not gonna be pleasing to some of you, even some of my friends, but please dun stone me even after i say it, if u wanna see it, highlight it, if u highlighted it, and get furious, dun blame me! hahaha! ==> I dun like Jay, i dun think he will be the next singapore idol...i give him 3 more rounds to be out, i know he has alot of supporters, but i still dun like him... haha! he cant sing english songs, chinese, maybe, but not english... okok, i have ranted out my grievances...

Integrated presentation is coming so soon, and rite after that will be the exams, and den the holidays, man... passing so so fast...

Alexander

2006-07-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the "Long Bar" at Raffles Hotel... celebrated jasmine's birthday there, together with peiwen, joanna and kaili... it was fun! call me suaku, but tt was my first time in a pub! haha... i drank "Straw. Magareta" haha... not much liquor... tasted like cough syrup though... haha.. but i was happy with my drink...

PEIWEN SPILLED HER ABSOLUT VODKA SPRITE ON ME!!! hahaha... it was COLD! my leg was like freezing, and i was stunned! haha...

Anyway, it was fun, and looking forward to more of these kinda things... haha! alex is a naughty boy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

oh, and we found out who is joanna's SCANDAL!!!

2006-07-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

Past few days quite busy once again... had my class roadshow on tuesday and wednesday... It was FUN! haha, i did not expect that my class would end up with so much sales... the roadshow was definately a success for us! After the roadshow, can see that our class was more bonded... btw, my class was selling "MyStamp"...

On thursday went to my father's office to interview people. It was good, went for lunch with friends there... good catching up with them!

Today, went for MRSH retest! It was BAD... the test was so much more difficult... haha, oh well... i did study for it! after tt went to celebrate yuet wei BD with classmates at taka there... we had seoul garden! haha... played stupid games until after tt my tummy was like, i think i had stomach indigestion on the way home, felt terrible! haha... but it was fun and memoriable...

2006-07-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

A song which i currently like...

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

2006-06-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

Alright, just a few updates cause i'm kinda busy...

I once again, failed another common test - Marketing Research... so far i have failed 2 module's common test in poly, and both happed to be marketing modules... and i am specialising in marketing.

On a happier note, i got selected for the "Serve Cambodia" Team!!! very happy for this...

Another update is that i will start trying my best to do quiet time everyday from now on... everytime, say say only, but never do... but now, i will "try" to make it a point to set aside the time from 11pm to 12am to do my quiet time.

Kinda settled down in my new house now... but yes, still have things to pack, but not my stuff...

Tomorrow - worship practise in church, and my uncle's house warming party in the evening...

2006-06-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

alright... another milestone in my life has just taken place today... I JUST MOVED HOUSE! haha... happy, yet sad...

i spent about 16 years of my life in the old house... "24 Tai Hwan Drive"... it does feel extremely nostalgic... many memories have passed me while staying in that house... well the new house was actually my uncle's old house... now with all the renovations, and everything, it looks like new... i have a new bed... at least my room is not so cramped... sad to say, i dun have my own room... but its better den before...

well, these few days are gonna be very very busy for me... gotta unpack, and school's re opening, and i have lotsa projects to complete... havent completed my surveys yet, which are due this monday...

anyway, today was a tiring day, moving stuff... so i think its time for my sleep...on my new bed... ahh... nice...

2006-06-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

ok, back from the retreat... well, it was tiring, physically, and emotionally... its been really tiring physically, cause of all the running here and dere, and for the games at the beach, though it was not so difficult, i think i was kinda weak... kinda heaty i think... my mouth swell again...

There were some discouraging moments, i would confess... but well, i have learnt to accept them, though i would still be still discouraged... inevitable somehow...

but rite now instead of telling everyone what the discouraging things for me was, i will not, i will tell of the very very encouraging things...

I want to thank some people for all the encouragement they have given me, whether small or big... These people are:

1. My Mentor (even though he was not at the retreat)

2. Lawrence

3. Morgan

4. Daniel

5. Derek

6. Eunice Chong

The six of you have really really encouraged me, and really made my day especially when i was down, during some parts of the retreat. I am sure each of them have been through what i have been through, and can understand, thats probably why they took the effort to encourage me...

I just want to thank my mentor, even before the retreat itself, and even after the retreat, have been continuously encouraging me... thanks, i have read the card you gave me during sunday service, it is really encouraging... At the time i am writing this, you are probably in Thailand already fulfilling God's mission for you... Just wanted to encourage you that you are not alone, even though people might have left the team, dun get upset, because God is the ultimate overseer of the whole trip...

Wanna thank lawrence and morgan and daniel and derek, for at alot of times during the retreat, you have always showered me with encouragements, such as, good job, dun get discouraged, and all those...

Eunice Chong, for the time after bbq, when i tried to gather everyone to settle down, 3 or 4 times, and everyone just took my instructions just like a passing wind, totally ignored me, i became stressed, leading to being pissed, and i suddenly scolded the whole group there... i am sorry to all of you, but hope you all would uderstand... Eunice, helped me and calmed me down.. telling me not to be too stressed... thanks alot...

well, planning and leading a camp, i must say it is not easy, involves alot of emotional hurts, but i guess its how u handle it...for me, during the camp, i somehow did my utmost best to be strong, and hide the hurts... cause i guess that by letting it out, it might not have benefitted anyone, or anything...in fact it might have made matters worse... so i chose to keep quiet... i realised that it is really no use sharing certain things with people... well, maybe to some people, yes, but not most people...

Tomorrow will be another tiring day i guess, i will be over at wisma selling "MyStamps" for Singpost, as part of learning certain stuff for the upcoming roadshow in school, when school reopens... i would probably be there about 1...

ok, i gotta go...oh, and hope this skin is good enough, theres actually a background music, a band that i like, song is titled "Secret", quality of song is not too good, but nvm.. haha...

2006-06-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well, this is it, tmr will be the Sat BS retreat... am i excited for it? well... i AM excited, but at the same time, i AM worried... the feeling is the same as that of having an important exam, or having a driving test the next day. I am very scared i might have forgotten things...

I pray that everyone will have a good time in the retreat, learning more about God.

been talking to my close brother...

when God places ppl in our lives, they are opportunities for us to show them how much we love them with God's love
the harder it is, the greater the opportunity
u have a choice to face it with worldly 'wisdom' or with God's grace

it begins with humility
and that's very hard
it's putting others first, whether or not they are right. and it's putting them first and LIKING it
that is very hard to do

Well, pondering pondering...